why cant i get my shit together...this is getting to the point where i might just have to completely give up and just let things take there course and whatever happens must just be what is supposed to happen...

things are getting kinda hard to handle around here...1st of i have no motivation to go to any of my art classes and it is fucking torture to sit through them, i dont wanna do this shit anymore and it is really taking a toll on the way i feel everyday. 2nd i love my friends here and i know that i can talk to them if i ever need to but sometimes i ( Read more... )

Two years ago....it was Feb. 2005 ( Read more... )

i have SO much to write about but i cant really write about it....either i would be opening up to much, or i just cant put how i feel into words...i wanna get it out but i just cant ( Read more... )

ok so i have found a really great group of friends at school and it def. continues to grow, and i have even found the best set-up for an apartment next year (crossing my fingers my OKs it!!). its just, everyone has found there "significant other" (or more) but what i mean is like yea Rian and Katharine are my 2 best friends there but im number 2. ( Read more... )

tuesday cant come soon enough. it fucking sux cuz the only reason i am not home right now at this fucking moment is cuz my monday fashion class teacher insists on having a full class...like WHAT THE FUCK!!! everything is done, over, finito...but noooo we have to have one last class which covers nothing important...anyways just to reiterate....i am ( Read more... )

20 things you didnt know about me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I cant be considered an artist. Its just that i can never think of my own things to draw. Like I have never been able to just sit with a blank page infront of me and create something. Yea when i am told what to do I can usually do it and it looks good i guess, but its not me. I wish i could just sit and draw. I know this ( Read more... )

so laura just came into my room and asked me about what the deal was with the cleaning yesterday which is no big deal its not even worth mentioning but only to set up the story...then she was like "people have been saying that you have been calling us bitches and complaing about eating your food and stuff like that" ok 1st of all the only time i ( Read more... )

like usual, i underestamated my work. in my writing composition class i figured i would just have read a couple of the stories that she gave us and be all set. but little did i know that there would more to it then i thought. i am never going to be ready for tomorrow and just what i need to flunk out of college the 1st semester. i am freaking out ( Read more... )