> I hate the part of me that keeps pushing to be comfortable and accepted ... its making me nosy and asinine ... kick me and hit me in the face ...

I cant get over this feeling ... its so great ... I feel so warm and comfy inside like my heart was frozen and has been defrosted and is working like a train ... its beating so fast and I feel like it just isolated itself from the rest of my body ... I can feel it wanting to go off on its own ... I'm laying on my bed, I feel like a baby who has the ( Read more... )

Do I regret what I may do, or regret what I didn't do?

> No. I'm sorry. I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself. You didn't do anything wrong, I have a lot to say, but can't. I'm not avoiding you ... I'm trying to keep from destroying an already non-existent friendship. I don't know how to talk to you, how to let you know what I'm feeling, thinking. I don't want you to judge me differently because of ( Read more... )

~> I hate how I can't be friends with her and pretend that my feelings for her didn't exist ... I don't know what to do, get farther, get closer ... If I make a mistake, I'll enter that horrible state of depression again, only this time it may be worse ... Because I have created some form of friendship with her ... I don't want to miss the feeling ( Read more... )

~> I want her to stop talking to me ... I also want her to continue trusting and telling me ... I don't know

.~> Ha! I totally forgot that prom/ball existed until I started reading journals ... I don't even know if I want to go this year (even though I already bought a ticket

Look Who Followed The Crowd ( Read more... )