As time goes by the times I think about it get less often, I no longer wake up crying and I can think about the past without wanting to kill myself...but sometimes, something will trigger it, and it will come without warning. I'll feel it stronger than ever. I never thought Id get to the point where it doesn't hurt non stop, and Im here, and it ( Read more... )

Im jumping in a direction I never thought Id be interested in going in...and Im enjoying it. I believe. Im scared. Im nervous and Im worried I won't be able to shut the door on something i know I no longer need...but...I spent so many years focused on it..and I don't know exactly how to let go..So..im living one day at a time and hoping one day I ( Read more... )

Sex. People do it for so many reasons. Me. Why did I do it? Lets see, I was raised being told it was wrong, I was raised knowing it was something meant for marriage. So, what made me do it? The first time I believe it was out of fear. I knew how many people were doing it, and I thought in order to keep the guy I was dating, I needed to. I ended up ( Read more... )

Ive spent the last two years putting my life back together, figuring myself out, growing, getting things straight...for what? In a matter of weeks everything seemed to just crash, starting with Geoff, then Damon and now just going back to my stupid ways, and feeling depressed, once again. I haven't felt depressed in a while, I haven't had a hard ( Read more... )

I got in more trouble this week than was needed...I was so stressed because of everything thats been going on and I really just wanted to let all of it out...so..yeah...Damon came this week ( Read more... )

So, I promised myself I was done with live journal, but I can't seem to get everything out that I need to, and this seems like a pretty good way right now ( Read more... )

nothing I ever did was good enough, well thank you baby cause you made me tough ( Read more... )

 Alrighty. I haven't written like this in a while. Basically I need to get everything off my chest and theres no better way to do it sense my so called best friend Melissa has been MIA for a while now. I have a past. Im not perfect. I often think the world revolves around me, I am manipulitve and I like getting what I want. But Im loyal and ( Read more... )

Im talking to Damon right now. It's soo strange ( Read more... )

every once in a while I get to thinking ( Read more... )