i want to be with you ( Read more... )

we're still together somehow.
right now it's pretty much all or nothing, things seem to be better now.
i miss him soo much right now. I miss laying down next to each other...no matter how crazy the world gets there's always that peace and comfort you get when you're that close to your special someone. I need that right now.

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i've never felt so much self-hate
...and i can't even figure out why.

How did life ever get this way?

I don't get it .

Mmmhmm, bye, bye ( Read more... )

i think my bf dumped/will dump me...not so sure ( Read more... )

I need to write more songs....I used to have a bunch of them and either lost what I;d written between moving from MD to Boston or hadn't played them in so long I forgot most of them and can only play bits and pieces of eacch song. And then the new stuff I write, it's hard for me to get the words out, i'll get the melody and most of the chords ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm always searching for more, searching for answers but just all in the wrong places. I don't know what to do anymore. I need to be okay but i know i'm not. and I keep looking at old photos knowing it'll never be like that ever but I tell myself there's a chance anyway. like this whole situation is just temporary and I'll wake up ( Read more... )

JERK!!!

I know he loves me.....but he's not in love with me. He doesn't look at me the same. he rarely smiles when we first see each other...like he's not glad to see me, like i'm one of his errands or something. we'll make out and do our thing and then he'll just go back to his computer. wtf? since i've been home we haven't had one date, just the two of ( Read more... )