well once again one of the many ex girls that have graced my heart is engaged to the ex that said "i will never marry you cuz of your kid" ya word for word well that is to what i heard but it dosnt hold much weight i think i was the pawn in her game to make him understand or the whole jelousy angel that the fucking race with a vagina plays...you ( Read more... )

1)Leave Amber !!Check ( Read more... )

yesterday marked the 9th month...all in all what this means is i would be a father right now give or take a few weeks and i just fucking lost it driving back here from my parents house i had to pull over and just manticly cried like i made the biggest misstake in my life how i have become this person how did i make it this far why am i still ( Read more... )

my fucking gawd! the worst has come since soo long that i have typed anything about my life but soo as a recap on what i have read in past postings...life has gotten worse soo after megan as my last post states i 1) got a OWI(drinking while driveing) 2) met Amber 3) left amber 4) became more fucked up than ever imagind ( Read more... )

its gone its over its all GONE! it hurts soo much and the only thing i can do is watch it go away feel the hurt all over again but this isnt the hurt befor its a new hurt the one that makes you drained the one that makes you judge everything you have ever done the hurt that makes you want to sleep because you wake up and you just dont want to feel ( Read more... )

for fuck sake why do i think that everytime im going to turn around im going to get fucked not like someone getting fucked but like prison style fucked i just dont belive that the way things are going in my life that its ok i have money now dont have to worry about that i dont have a place to live working on that come may and i have a great girl no ( Read more... )

ok soo im doing soo fucken great me and megan are good but something i feel just isnt right she isnt the same anymore she sleeps and watches tv in the other room when im down here and she never sees what im doing and never comes in just to say hi i love you heres a kiss like i do to her i just wonder if she feels the same as me and after some ( Read more... )

What the fuck is wrong with me i dont know soo taylors first atempt to not smoke wasnt as great as it started i just cant do it i feel i dont know but im sooo stressed out and why you may ask about nothing im just panicy and sad and crying everynow and again im like the old me i just cant get rid of this i cant stop it i want it to go awaya nd i ( Read more... )

oh my fucken god it has been a great span and now congrats taylor has hit the wall i will allways hit soo the fill in ive been seeing/with this girl for like a little over a month and everything is going great and splended and then all of a sudden i just look at anouther girl and now im confused as to what im doing and if i really want this and i ( Read more... )

sooo taylor has a new job as of the 17th better pay better hours and whatnots i feel kinda bad for leaving the job im at but they cant meet what this job provides god the way my life is going i should be owning a house shortly and that would be soo kickass but i also am meeting this chick for drinks tonight thats on the good side going in without ( Read more... )