My sister, a siebal scholar, graduated today with a doctorate from John Hopkins today specializing in chemical and biomolecular engineering ( Read more... )

It all started may 16th 2011. That night I had stolen my mothers credit card for the millionth time to buy booze, pizza, gas, and cigarettes and gone over to matt and liz's apartment. When I got there the only people there were Matt and Sean, Liz was out of town. My mom kicked me out for stealing her credit card so I had to stay over with Matt and ( Read more... )

I hate AA for who it made my dad become. I liked my dad for who he was, even though I hated him. My hate for him grew even more when he entered AA and became all spiritual-I thought he went nuts. He bought books like conversations with God and all that bullshit. He changed. I guess that's what happens when you sober up ( Read more... )

"So, as our experience shows, the first nondrinking days are likely to be periods of great emotional vunerability ( Read more... )

I'm scared

every now and then I cry when I think of you

I drove by the spot where Josh died last night...theres still some memorial stuff there. I guess his family and some of our friends planted stuff there for easter this past weekend. There is usually stuff there though. It brought birthed a lot of thoughts though about him and James ( Read more... )

I had the weirdest dream/hallucination last night. Holy shit ( Read more... )

This is probably one of the last journal entries you guys will be able to read. I am privatizing it from here on out. I hid quite a few of them but there's only so far it will let me go back.

Feel free to read but please do not judge.

Love,
Me?

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change ( Read more... )