"You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it."
~Maya Angelou

It seems I am no longer capable of doing anything except fake it or fight with anyone in my house anymore. I guess I fucked everything up for acadia. Whatever. And to think that i thought it couldn't get much worse. I tried to stay calm, but she's sitting there raising her voice at me throwing around blame like its water balloons filled with paint ( Read more... )

yep. apparently that is me. there are only 3 people i met while dating kyle that i truly care what they think of me. and one of them messaged me on myspace today and says "Why did you do what you did to kyle?" I know i don't owe them an explanation or anything, but i care what they think of me ( Read more... )

i hate her ( Read more... )

"Some Hearts" by Carrie Underwood ( Read more... )

that's the latest i've ever been out. but it's the most at home i've felt in quite awhile. i know they're right, and that i'm stupid for staying with kyle. but, it's nice to feel needed, and jeez, i dunno. it's stupid, because i know i don't love him and i know it will never work. but, what can i do? i promised him a month and a half, i'll just ( Read more... )

he admitted that he still has feelings for his ex-girlfriend. who pops up in conversation quite a bit. who he has compared me to before. I mean, it's nothing i didn't already suspect, but it hurts so much to have heard it, and read it ( Read more... )

So, on the fence about life right now. Basically, everything is really good except my parents. Apparently, my dad is moving into a fucking hotel for awhile... Urg. Last night was fun though. I just got home from spending almsot a full week at my sisters, and last night i went to concord to hang out with a bunch of DeMolay boys. Chad basically only ( Read more... )

ugh. i hate them. i hate his parents so much. he called me bawling his eyes out. wanting to break up with me because his parents didn't want me to see me and he didn't think he would ever be able to. talking about how he loves me so much. this combined with everything is going to drive me off the edge. but i don't want to do anything that i will ( Read more... )

i'm falling into my own skin again. after long talks with noelle, i didn' even realize i know some of the stuff i do about myself ( Read more... )