"Don't you know that love isn't just going to bed? Love isn't an act, it's a whole life. It's staying with her now because she needs you; it's knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures -- when all that's on the shelf and done with. Love -- why, I'll tell you what love is: it's you at seventy- ( Read more... )

you're an idiot
go fuck yourself
thank you

some days I wish I could hate fuck the shit out of you.
would make this lifetime much more bearable

i want to push everybody away and be alone ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel the crazy taking over
i know when its happening
i can feel its antsy nervous engergy creeping its way up
can't stop it.
i know when i'm being ridiculous
i know that what i am doing is not cool or sane
its just keeps going

Layers ( Read more... )

I don't know if I believe in love for me.
I don't form very long attatchments because in my head
I don't think I'll be around for very long
Its weird its morbid. I can't help it.

Sometimes I forget how smart I'm supposedly am
and act and feel so monumentally retarded
both socially and mentally.
I never have thought I was particularly brainy
its been assumed because I have such a good memory
but in all actuality I have no cogntive processes at all
I don't think
at all
I'm a silly dumb girl.

sometimes i wish i could just sleep and wake up when my life has started ( Read more... )

I think that little by little I'm becoming invisible ( Read more... )