"I sometimes like to think that peoples hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows whats at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface once in a while ( Read more... )

i swear to god, the shit that happens in my life is like straight out of a fucking cartoon sometimes ( Read more... )

i really love that some things never change. even if im hypocritical in saying so. for the first time in a while things are starting to make a little sense. things are starting to be ok. or at least able to be dealt with. im happy(to a strange extent). it might be the season. who knows. ive lost sight of a lot of things and im giving other things ( Read more... )

im afraid if i go back, ill stay there. aside from 7 dollar beers, and 5 hour bus rides, tuesday is the best day ive had in a while. i really wish i had gone up there more rested, but the last night was the most peacful 4 1/2 hours sleep ive had in a long time. i was excited to sleep and excited to get up. i havent been to chicago in a while, but ( Read more... )

at this time tomorrow, ill be anywhere thats not here.

not

here

ive imagined myself as a tree for the last few hours. a tree with lots of branches. each branch branches into more branches. hundreds of branches. so many branches, that the tree is top heavy. a little too top heavy. my trunk really isnt the thickest and my roots arent exactly the strongest. i mean, they were a long time ago. sometimes theres so ( Read more... )

screw this indian summer. it should not be 85 degrees in october. im hoping the weather will be much better tuesday. i got through all of summer without cutting my hair, so it would be rather nice to have the low temperature nights and mild days ( Read more... )

all i can think about this week is leaving. even if its for only a day, i just want miles of distance between me and this awful place. i have my show ticket and i have my bus ticket. i want to pick up a book before i go too. with any luck though, i might be able to sleep more than a few hours. for the last couple of weeks a few hours has been all ( Read more... )

things could not be any more inconvenient right now for this trip, but im going to do it anyway. mike cant go anymore, which is ok. dominic isnt going, which is ok too, im phoneless which again is ok but a bit inconvenient. the fact that i never got a new bank card yet to order my tickets, and that im not going with someone with a phone is just ( Read more... )

fall has gotten off to a good start so far, but i cant shake this feeling that somethings not right. im sure its just mixed feelings about a lot of things. motivation has been a bit low lately. i still need to order my language books, i still need to get a new phone(even though its kind of refreshing), and i still need to put some money aside for ( Read more... )