today started out shitty with son being an asshole and playing favorites to Alex. he took Alex to chuck e cheese and not Joshua. i can only imagine the pain that Joshua must be going through. he told me today that he knew he wouldn't take him cause he never has liked him that nearly broke my heart. you know my step dad used to take his step kids to ( Read more... )

this week has been a bit stressful... ever have days where you feel like your are drowning and you try so hard to keep your head above water ...try to keep that smile and that happiness but inside you feel yourself sinking ? that is me today .. im losing joshua .. he is diving deeper and deeper into a path i can not seem to break him from his anger ( Read more... )

Alex is running around in a Darth Vader mask and a Vietnamese hat so he looks like what darth vader would look like if he joined the VC i guess lol it is pretty funny i got a great big laugh out of it .. but thats just me ( Read more... )

last night was so awesome .. for the first time in such a long time i actually took control of my emotional instability and used it to gain more of a hold on my physical being .. whoot whoot .. wth am i talking about ? instead of being depressed about being overweight grabbing a fucking sandwhich and chowing down ..i ran/walked for a mile .. can i ( Read more... )

well i guess im just a horrid person .. amazing what self realization can bring you ... this is a warning to all people in and around me ..watch out i am an asshole! and i highly suggest you all stay away .. and for those i hurt ..forgive me one day ..

stupid fucking xbox blew out my tv cost us 500 bucks to fix .. can we get in the hole financially any more jesus ... stupid power surges from game consoles .. games suck