Ok i just wanted to admit that i got a myspace account after being pressured by a few friends, so look for me to post on that since i really do forget to come on here. it will be easier to remember that one since my friends are on it and i will actually get feedback and stuff hehe ( Read more... )

This would probably work better if people even knew i had a live journal, so that maybe someone would actually reply to it. but maybe like in a year someone will find this post and give a belated reply. or they can just steal it and put it in their journal people actually read ( Read more... )

feeling kinda sick and shaky. im thinking too hard again. sometimes i let my emotions interfere with my head. i think that this is all this is. i hope this is all it is. im questioning something i dont want to question....im scared... but what is it im scared of? is it the fact that im questioning, or is it the fact that my what if is actually the ( Read more... )

ok so... i have heard some horror stories from americans living in the UK...some england, some scotland...people have been in some scary situations because of being american. one guy was almost beat up when some guy overheard his accent, and a girl at a football match, when some drunk guy realized she was american, mocked her with something to the ( Read more... )

I would start out my first entry in a while with something like " havent written in a while. will try to remedy that." However thats horribly predictable hehe. i dont know why i am even choosing to write now since i dont really know what to say. might be a good idea for me to unload some of the crap on my brain though, its getting pretty full in ( Read more... )

this is another one of my therapy ramblings, dont bother reading it, it wont do you much good ( Read more... )

im thinking. i needed some "think" time. nothing like a good cry. im screwing up. or im just paranoid. or both maybe. but i know that patience can only go so far, even when you love someone. so i better snap out of this mood before i lose the most important person in my life right now. i dont know whats wrong with me...i guess one tends to take for ( Read more... )

so this morning i was out at 9am. let me just say that it was one of the most beautiful things ever. there was snow everywhere, weighing down the branches...it was early enough that only old men were out shoveling so mostly everything was still covered, even the roads werent too clear...the only thing that makes oakland look clean is a few inches ( Read more... )

yea so i lied about the haircut. i let him chop off 5 inches, and its styled totally different too. i really like it to be honest, i think its kinda nice. wierd havin short(er) hair but its not bad. its still past my shoulders ( Read more... )

its been a long wierd day. for the first time ever hoshi and i didnt have much to say. im going to assume its just part of settling in and not some sign of unavoidable damnation like the old me would. its nice to grow up a little ( Read more... )