Creating the scenery, the colors, the sensations all as I go. I must not get distracted or i'll lose control of my reality. Just keep soaring and creating. Either focus and create your own reality or let it wildly and randomly toss you up like any other particle in its way.

elusive. happy, detached. no favorites. no attachment.

Hello Internet. I'm tired. Went to a wedding yesterday. Then had a picnic and talked about 401ks and getting certified for this and that. why do people like to make life more complicating than it needs to be ( Read more... )

I'm going to say this because nobody reads this journal anymore so it would actually be considered a modest statement rather than an egotistical one: I am having an amazing time being alive ( Read more... )

a month on my best behavior around his family and the kids. i did laundry. dishes. swept the floor. what for? what for? what for ( Read more... )

in a modern japanese home `babysitting.` babysitting to me means Google Reader while my boyfriend rocks the kid to sleep. why does it disturb me so much that he is so good with children? he is so self-sufficently unisex. i am constantly confused ( Read more... )

the past few weeks have been very interesting; I`m not sure where to begin.

Extremes! Extremes! This painstaking struggle to compartmentalize nature and reality; extreme suppression of emotions. and then the cathartic outburst of extreme weirdness--explosive, inventive, strange but brilliant weirdness ... yet in very appropriately fenced-in spaces. An interactive bento box ( Read more... )

So, I didn't leave Dharamkot that day. I ended up staying another month. Something about the Himalayans, the Tibetans, the fresh air, the spirituality, and the pace kept me. Life slowed down to a beautiful, graceful stride. Every once in awhile, I would look up at the mountains, take a deep breath and just feel completely and utterly free in every ( Read more... )

I guess it's time for me to update this thing. I've already filled up an entire moleskin, sent out 10 postcards, and written a multitude of emails to family and friends. It's time to update this old dusty thing in case anybody else i've missed might be interested ( Read more... )