Wow its already February! That means Valentines day is in two weeks. AHHHHHH! I need to go shopping...maybe. Albert and I are fighting but whats new? Thats all we ever do is fight. I mean when we aren't fighting we have the best time but when we are we are both just so unhappy. So maybe I should just let him go. Maybe I'm not the right ( Read more... )

SO pow wow was soooooooo fun. I have never ever had so much fun at a dance. Erica and I were on fire. LOL. I love you Erica. ITs funny how one person can make your like so much better. But yeah it was bomb! I swear I had soooo much fun! I think that everyone had a lot of fun. BUt yeah after we came back to my house and just watched some ( Read more... )

Boys are seriously a BIG waste of time. They are only good at one thing...hurting you. I am so over them! I am tired of being hurt.

I am seriously so done!

First God took Mason's grandpa Jesse from me...them God took my dog of 16 years from me...then God took Dylan from me...Now God has taken a really big joy from my life...Freddie Boy. RIP Freddie...I miss you so much. I love your smile and I will never forget it or all the happiness it brought me. I am sorry I didn't go to the funeral. I just ( Read more... )

Well its a new year which means a brand new start. Hopefully this year will start out better then the last one ended. For some reason I have knots in my stomach as I am writing this. I am sad about something but I can't exactly point out what it is. I haven't heard from Jahmar in three or four days I kind of lost count. I think he is mad at me ( Read more... )

I no longer know what to think or feel. Every time someone tries to talk to me about Freddie I vomit. I hate God. I hope he knows it too. Why does he take such innocent things. To be totally honest...I am not even sure if their is a God. If so hes not as great as we all think he is. At least he doesn't answer any of my prayers. All he does ( Read more... )

Honestly God is testing me. Mason's cousin is doing really bad. They are just waiting for his brain to shut down then they are going to turn off the life support. How could this happen. I thought he was eight but he is only six. I dont know how to deal with it all. I still try ot make myself believe its not true. I hate God right now. How ( Read more... )

Christmas started out so good. I gave Erica her presents and she was so excited and then I came home and had a blast with my family. As I always do. The rock! So then Mason's family calls me and tells me to go to his grandmas (who lived down the street from me) so we could exchange gifts. SO we went over there and his little cousin got hit by ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Erica's birthday. It was so exciting. I gave her, her bike and she was so excited. She jumped up and down she was so exited. Then after I gave it to her we went riding around my house for a little while. Next week we are going to go to the beach and ride them. Yesterday Jahmar asked me out so...yeah. I have to babysit on New ( Read more... )