it sucks when you realize you haven't necessarily ever been true to yourself and you've just been building up something to avoid tearing it down ( Read more... )

"across the universe" is fucking stunning.

how do you learn to trust people? i'm tired of being held hostage to my fears and doubts. i've met the man i want to be with for the rest of my life, but i can't trust him. he's never given me a reason to not trust him, and i know he loves me completely and without any hesitation but i cannot, for the life of me, sit and think for 5 seconds that he ( Read more... )

asheville and brevard with aaron for the next couple of days.

i'm so happy.

yuppp stuff and things ( Read more... )

aaron and i live together now.
it rules. i love living in downtown raleigh.
except for the occassional bum who wants to kill aaron... bc he's an ass.
i work at the hibernian, i'm really good at being what drunk assholes go to an irish pub to see. 
mark and i are going to ohio to hang out with jenny for a few days. nice!
we're going to cedar motha fuckin ( Read more... )

okay so jenny's update made me think about updating. yeah i know it's like we're the same person.

school is ok. i wish the social aspects of pembroke right now didn't SUCK SO MUCH. seriously. there is this incident that occured last year and it's all anyone besides jennanoram and ashley will talk to me about. PLUS a certain someone who i guess you ( Read more... )

guess who's going to new mexico in 7 days. i am. with aaron. we're driving all the way out there so he can haul his stuff and then i'm staying for a week. after a week i'll be flying back to north carolina alone and wondering when i'll be able to see aaron again, but ultimately happy to know that i have someone out there. it's insane how amazing it ( Read more... )

so how's this for some bullshit-

there's a chance my family won't pay for my school &/or apartment if i go to new mexico to say goodbye to my boyfriend (who i love very much & could possibly never see again or only see rarely until i graduate/he finishes his graduate school).

if they dont- fuck 'em. that's so ridiculously hypocritical & ( Read more... )

general update on my life:

i work all the time.
when i'm not at work, i'm with mark and jenny.
when i'm not with mark and jenny, i'm with aaron.
i love aaron.
aaron is moving to new mexico.
i'm going with him.
but i'll be back after a week or something like that. 
i don't know if we're going to break up or not.
i hope we stay together because we love ( Read more... )