Don't know exactly why I'm doing this. No one I used to know is still in here anyway. It's just that sometimes I think of the past and I think of this account. I was reminiscing of that time I was almost raped. It alway stays with you, like a miscarriage.

Before I posted I just went in to make sure I haven't posted anything while out of my brain which I don't remember ( Read more... )

We're keeping Hedwig in a box with a window so he can see Saphira and the kids.


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One glorious week ago my babies had babies.


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Sometimes I want to rip the skin off your bones. You don't deserve what I do for you and you don't try to deem yoursef worth it. I am not your slave; I don't have to do these things. I do them because I want to help you, because I love you, but treat me like you do and you're sure to get nothing from me ( Read more... )

Today was interesting. I finally iniciated the "peace talks" with the Chinese couple that we share our apartment with. Here's how it went:

I walk into the kitchen as casually as possible and say "Hi". Of course I was ignored by Lina who was washing the dishes. Lee was outside smoking, so I sat on one of the chairs in the dinning room and waited ( Read more... )

This is absolutely ridiculous. I go into the kitchen to remind our housemates that rent was due in last Saturday yet we still haven't recieved anything from them, and they run out the kitchen like I'm a pest, without a word and before I could even open my mouth ( Read more... )

Ever since I started taking antidepressants my sex drive has gone to the ground. I guess it's expected as "decreased libido and anorgasmia" are among the common side effects, but I DO NOT ENJOY NOT BEING ABLE TO HAVE AN ORGASM. It actually makes me MORE depressed because I want to have it but I can't. Ray and I have had sex 3 consecutive times and ( Read more... )

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It's one of those super depressive days when nothing it seems can stop you from feeling like crap.