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[deliriumsetsin]

Sometimes i just want to be the only one in the world, nobody around to bother me for change, to bug me about some bullshit, to tell me the latest gossip, to be the creator of drama, even my very presence tends to bring some sort of uncertainty to a situation, I'm a loose cannon, a wild card you might say. Just goddammit let things straighten out.

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[chasingmeaning]

nothing. i want nothing. why do you not want anyone to exist?(is that worded right?lol) life would be boring if you had no one to love, hate, hurt, heal, kill or resuscitate...you don't want me around? boo-hoo

[deliriumsetsin]

i felt this to be very self explainitory, but then again i assume a lot of things that are incorrect. i guess an attempt at an explination is in order, tons of things on my mind, bear with this.

it's not that i don't want people to exist. i absolutely love my life, and those in it right now. i'm having a fucking blast. buuuut, you know me, my style, my mind...nothing is good enough. ever. one chink in the armor of my good life and i throw it all away. new canvas, we're starting over. that's what this is about. i need a new personal canvas. and while i'm at it, i'd like to add a picture or eighty to the female canvas...but that's getting too far ahead.

i need to sit down, i need to read. i need to be so bored and so lonely that i just want to shoot myself, that's when i'm at my prime...that's when the fear and loathing begin. that's when i become alive.

fuck it, i need a re-start button. i could make this all so much better.

explain nothing

[chasingmeaning]

your original staement was explanatory, but you can always take it deeper...by having a re-start button you wouldn't get to experience things as mistakes. Think of when you were younger and would get mad at a video game and just restart it??is that really solving anything, did you really fell better...of course not...reading is good, but then I go back to books that I have read so long ago and can't remeber shit...that part blows...being alone is nice, having experienced both extremes is good to level you off so you know your limits wheteher wanting to stay in them or exceed...the issue on women, I'll stay away from that one...lol have a "smashing" good memorial day weekend... Go Pistons

Re: explain nothing

[deliriumsetsin]

but why bother taking it deeper. surface value doesn't please?

[chasingmeaning]

surface value pleases, but only to a certain extent.