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Desires outside the field
I'm feeling this irrepressible pull to another. She is like mine, but she is less of a contrast. More atuned, more atelligent, but just as bubbly, just as innocent and perhaps more beautiful. But that pull comes at a poor time, as it always does ( Read more... ) -
Entering the sixteenth month
There's an insane kind of fury when you need or want to be left alone and someone is always on you, annoying you, needing your attention, being all over you. There's a sense of claustrophobia that I can understand Pese a bit better now and maybe forgive her for. But I was never like that ( Read more... ) -
Is it another longing
Another high class hotel, with leather and mild brown surrounding a purgent bar of cocktails, whisky and liquid sin. I don't think it was Rachel Weisz; you can never really remember faces. But I think it was close, or perhaps some resemblence by figure, form or mind. In reflection, I think it was Pese, but it might have been created by my deluded ( Read more... ) -
Another one of my dreams
Russell doesn't want to come out to the gym/tennis courts (he's with two chicks) where Kelly, Christine, Jacinta lots of people are playing basketball and tennis (some guy nearly hits me with a tennis ball). I keep picking up other people's balls and ask them who's they are. Everyone's short of balls ( Read more... ) -
Damned Neediness
You know I think I finally found one of the things that piss me off. Neediness. I mean I like to be helpful and everything, but I just confirmed (again) that my gf is like my dog, with those big brown eyes staring at me with liquid pools of adoration. And I hate it. She always wants things. Suggesting we do stuff, see stuff, go stuff, massage her ( Read more... ) -
Rebellion
I've been doing some thinking and I've realised that I really am getting unstable, as a notorious enemy of mine described me. My temper is so easily bubbling underneath the surface and anything sets it off. I'm afraid to be around people ( Read more... ) -
Why do I get so annoyed at her?
She called up I was driving with Kelly and Christine, we have kfc, heading to the beach, I have to pull over, turn left, make a three pointer while at the same time talking to her she went out to geelong for a christmas parrty and called for me to come over becaues her mother is staying at someone elses and shes at home alone and all that. I don't ( Read more... ) -
Seirath
Got a $#%^ing letter in the mail from the council. Two fines adding up to $400 because the dog escaped and because the dog wasn't registered. I don't know why I'm angry (no actually I do) but I know I damn well deserve it for not getting it done. The gate somehow opened from the wind but I can't help blaming my father for not shutting it properly ( Read more... ) -
More science, less prescience
Its so damn dark in here I wish I could get out. Everything's so backlogged. I'm not even sure if that's the right word. I've got too much due, all those essays and code to write up... times like this I miss the slack days of law. Including this night, I have three nights to start and complete a project. I wonder if I'll survive. It would be ( Read more... ) -
I'm back!
Oh I'm back, yes.
The only thing I hate about LJ is the users... all using people. Everyone's so lazy! Why don't they post the reply on the person's diary instead of their own?