In the midst of my regret I am a bit angry with myself. Angry at having to resort to such a vile act as purging, angry at being weak and angry that I’ve given into it again. And I am ashamed, the act of throwing up your own nourishment in such a derogatory position, having to forcefully stick your own fingers down your throat to painfully force ( Read more... )

I don't know why but I create these stories in my head and the constant thought of them distorts my concept of reality. I've done it since I was young and but at that time they were pretty much harmless. I lived in a fantasy world back then. This time, though, I'm creating different scenarios of real life events and kind of...well, jumping to ( Read more... )

So a lot has happened over the last few days. I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality.

( whiny jumbled thoughts )