This time last year was so hard for me… It was the time I found out about my first vocal jury as a performance major. The one where the basically told my voice teacher I was wretched. I weighed 200 pounds (which is overweight for my height). I drank too much. I had two D’s, a 2.74 GPA… I was depressed. I wanted to smoke cigarettes or do SOMETHING. ( Read more... )

I don't know if I'm mad at myself or not... I hate that I can change everything and ally feelings so fast ( Read more... )

Since no one really reads this thing, I'll just blather about things that are significant to me ( Read more... )

Such conflict. Happy… Pissed… Sad… I don’t know. I have reasons for a lot of them, but then they get tossed in a blender together and fight it out and the product is just a stew with no real flavor (what the fuck is that analogy, I would change it but I think that its funny how my brain works).

Happy

-I’m getting an agent in town that represents ( Read more... )

I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I am going to... I want that experience so bad ( Read more... )

My life is ridiculous ( Read more... )

i thought i liked it. i dont. i never will

I cannot hear the city ( Read more... )

I know I have this trend of what I post about. And I'm sure it gets old and boring to read... But, that's fine.

I'm stressed... A lot. But, days like yesterday remind me what it all is for, and why I'm putting myself through all this work. I have times where I sit and think "why the fuck am I doing this, why don't I just become a fucking ( Read more... )

I don't understand how the rest of the world isn't constantly utterly depressed ( Read more... )