Always loving you
Chapter 06
Walking out of my house for school the next day I was greeted by a mixture of optimism, excitement and guilt. I couldn’t wait to see Syn. To wrap him in my arms and tell him he is the one that I want, regardless of how corny that sounds, however I imagined seeing Zacky would be kinda awkward especially if he realises that me and Syn are together.
I was sighing to myself, the hot sun blaring down on my clothes back as I walked along my path. And there, sure enough when I opened the gate was no other then Brian Haner himself, there greeting me with a grin on his face which made me just want to love him more.
“Hey Syn,” I called, walking towards him.
“Hey Matty.” He replied, pulling me closer towards him. His eyes scanning my body hungrily. Mine reminded him of where we were and who may be looking and he soon stopped. Much to my indignation. He smiled at me again as we began walking towards our school.
“Had a good night?” Syn asked me.
“Was alright,” I shrugged, “just the usual night, y’know? You?”
“I was happy for a while.” Syn grinned, turning to look at me, “You know why. And then… just… yeah the usual too.”
“I was happy too.” I told him as we walked through our school dates. I cursed how short the journey took, I wanted to talk to Syn for longer!
Syn smiled at me as we parted way to our own form rooms, which unfortunately we did not share. I waved at him as I made my way to my class, sat down at my seat and thought about him.
***
Two lessons of being without seeing Zacky or Syn passed and I found myself walking back outside to where we sit at break times. As I approached them, Jimmy and Frank were visible, but Zacky and Syn were no where to be seen. I smiled and sat down on the wall, sighing softly and taking out a drink.
“Matt!” I heard someone call behind me as I felt a body jump on me and tackle me to the ground. If it wouldn’t have been so unexpectedly I would have been able to of retained myself, however all I saw was a flash of short black hair and red eyeshadow which automatically told me who it was as I fell to the ground with a loud “oomph”
“Zacky what the fuck?” I cried as he got off me. I looked up at him slightly angrily as I picked myself up. From behind Zacky I could see Syn who was just standing there with a slightly amused expression on his face.
“What?” Zacky grinned as I got up and walked towards Syn, smiling at him and then turning back to Zacky.
“You randomly tackling me.” I grinned.
“What Sanders? I’m not allowed to jump on you anymore? But you always used to let me…” He whined. My eyes widened in shock.
“Hey!” I cried, looking towards Syn who just rolled his eyes. I wasn’t sure who at, me or Zacky.
“Stop being so boring,” Zacky told me, smiling at me with the lips I used to fantasize about so often. My own eyes flickered towards them before I realised what I was doing and stopped. “Ooh, I was gonna ask you anyway Matty, about tonight?”
“Tonight?” I asked. “What about it?”
“Party.” Zacky said simply. “You’re invited. It’s at my house. Seven o clock.”
“Uh… sure?” I replied. I hadn’t heard about this party, but it wasn’t like I was doing anything else.
“Awesome.” Zacky grinned, reaching in and kissing me softly on the cheek. I smiled weakly as he grinned at me, “You’ll finally meet Micky too!” He smiled.
“Oh…great.” I said flatly. I don’t know why I wasn’t more enthused about Mick. I mean, he was the one who got Zacky off my back. Zacky was with him now, he no longer wanted me.
“You’ll love Mick,” Zacky smirked, “He is like me,”
“Great again,” I said in the same flat voice which made Syn smile slightly. I could see him from the corner of my eye.
“I gotta go to the bathroom,” I said quietly to Zacky who just nodded. He was too busy making friends with my friends to notice that Syn followed me.
“That was highly entertaining…” He said quietly as we walked.
“It was… I don’t know what it was.” I replied. “I don’t get him at all.”
“Me either.” Syn said as we walked passed the toilets. “Wait, where are we going?”
“Toilets? They’re skanky.” I replied. “I’m not doing anything in there.”
“Well, that is generally where you usually pee, Sanders.” Syn replied, confusion in his voice.
I smiled and stood still, turning back to him I smirked and raised an eyebrow.
“Who said anything about peeing?” I replied.
Syn didn’t say anything, his reaction was enough answers. His eyes lit up and he fastened his pace, following me wherever to where I was going. I wasn’t even sure he knew.
I turned a few corners, passed a few buildings and students and made my way to where me and him had gone a few days before, behind the back of the science labs. No one was there. It was just me and Syn. When we reached there I looked around quickly to make sure no one was around or could see us from a distance or anyone who was spending their breaks indoors in the science labs, even though that wasn’t allowed, because the school was weary over the fact of kids being in a room with chemicals. It was quite funny, if they thought we would all randomly just chug back bottles of acid, but it’s what they thought.
I turned back and looked at Syn who smiled at me. His smile alone made me want to kiss him, but there was still a few things I needed to talk to him about.
“Zacky doesn’t bother you, does he?” I asked, moving towards him and smiling.
“Not anymore you have broken up with him.” Syn grinned, moving closer and wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Good.” I smiled, pulling him closer. “So I guess you won’t mind if I do this…”
Reaching closer I kissed him roughly on the lips. Pulling away I grinned up him, waiting for a response.
“Of course not.” Syn replied, pulling me closer towards him and grinding his crotch up against mine. A soft moan escaped my lips as he kissed me again. “And don’t forget, later, we can do more.” Excitement and lust flashed through his eyes as he kissed me once more. I blinked and looked up at him.
Of course. He said we could do more now I wasn’t with Zacky. I bit my lip as I looked at him. My eyes flickered along his body. From his face, his tanned skin coupled with the sharp, harsh kohl that rimmed his bright dark eyes, his thin lips which were just perfectly kissable, that often turned into a grin every time I looked his way. And then he had the hair. The hair so soft and touchable, if he dared cut it all off I would probably find the remains of it and glue is back on. So long and dark, I would go into a long simile describing it, but his hair was so completely unique. I don’t think it could be compared to anything.
And that was just his head. Looking down to his chest which was so toned, even at his young age. His arms which were semi-naked. Only a few tattoos were hidden but existing on his grand overpowering arms. My eyes flickered lower towards his crotch. My mouth opened slightly at just the prospect of what lay beneath his underwear. But all I knew, was that I was ready to find out. And even though I was still a virgin, I was a teenage boy. And there was nothing more that I wanted right then to find out what that body standing in front of me felt like. I smiled wondering whether he would be on top or on the bottom. I felt like such a top that I just left it there. I pictured that body beneath me, writhing on the bed, his beautiful hair spread out and in my grasp, my eyes wavered back to his lips as I imagined them parted, soft breaths and moans escaping from his perfect parted lips as he called my name and begged for me to go harder.
Which I would do. I would do what he said to make us both cry out in complete orgasmic bliss before coming, ending it all but of course it didn’t matter, because it was just so amazing and perfect that the fact that it ended was unimportant.
I drifted off as I imagined this. Our first time together. The most perfect first time ever. Where we would both loose our virginities together, and it be the most romantic thing in the world. I smiled thinking about it. I had no idea what Syn was doing at this point, because in my eyes all I could see was the image of me and Syn together. And that… I believed that would be the hottest thing in the world. For anyone to watch.
“Uh, Matty?” I finally heard someone say. I was suddenly snapped out of my fantasy and thrown back into real life. I smiled as I saw Syn looking at me with a confused expression, “What the fuck are you doing? You look high…”
“I..” I began. Was thinking about me and you having sex? “I don’t know. I started daydreaming, don’t worry.” By the looks of the expression on Syn’s face I think I was pretty sure he knew what I was thinking about.
“Daydreaming huh?” Syn smirked, pressing his body against mine causing me to moan and the images remain in my brain. “Judging by this…” placing his hand on my crotch and stroking my erection which had appeared whilst I was daydreaming. I moaned again from the contact, looking up at him, “…I guess I know what you were daydreaming about.” He smiled and lowered his eyes towards my lips, kissing them softly and not removing his hand.
I said nothing. I didn’t want to make my erection worse and end up like it was yesterday. I heard the bell go for next lesson as I sighed and looked at Syn, wanting to ditch class so much just to go back to his house and make my fantasy a reality.
“Tonight?” Syn whispered as he stroked my crotch again, soft moans escaping from my mouth while I looked at him.
“Sure.” I smiled, “I… oh shit. No, I can’t, I am going to Zacky’s party thing… I can’t just blow it off…”
Syn smiled sadly at me as he took his hand away.
“It’s okay,” He shrugged, “Another time…”
“You have no idea how much I want to.” I replied, smiling at him.
“I know.” Syn said, looking into the distance, “We gotta get to class.” His expression changed to loving again as he looked back at me. “We got English.”
“Awesome.” I grinned, even though I knew it anyway, I had been looking forward to it all day.
He smiled again as we began walking back, thoughts of my grandma in my brain to get rid of the boner thoughts of Syn has caused. It soon worked though, and we quickly made it to English and slipped into our seats ready for the lesson.
I groaned as our teacher explained the task. Practising an essay for our final exam. That meant a whole hour of silence while we rehearsed the essay we needed to write. I looked at Syn sadly, he most probably knowing what I was thinking, he generally usually did.
I sighed and took the pen in my hand and began writing. Luckily we sat right at the back, so no one noticed when Syn slipped a spare piece of paper in between both our papers which we were writing on. I pretended not to notice as he wrote on it, pretending it was his own work.
Do you seriously think I’d go a whole lesson without not talking to you at all?
Sure we won’t get caught for this Syn? I mean, it could be seen as cheating…
I don’t care, I just wanted to talk to you.
Aww, Syn did I ever tell you how amazing you were?
No. But you can tell me if you wanna… =)
Haha, well, you just are. Come on, I chose you over Zacky, which was something I never thought I would do in a million years, you have no idea how I used to be with him. That’s something I guess…
It is. Even though he is a jerk and I have absolutely no idea why you like him…
Hey! Well, actually… you’re kinda right.
Damn straight… or not. Haha. But yeah, I hope he is happy with this Micky dude. At least that means I get you all to myself…
I wouldn’t want it any other way babe. I really do think I lov-
“You two passing notes?” My teacher called as I hid the paper.
“No.” Syn said in his usual casual tone. “We were just both using that as rough paper to plan our answer, is all.”
I smiled at what he said. The teacher bought it and didn’t say anything else on the matter. Me and Syn however was pissed that we couldn’t talk. He also looked like he wanted to talk to me real bad about something. I had a feeling it was the fact that I almost wrote “I love you” before I got stopped by the teacher. I guess in a way I was glad she did. I would have preferred it be said sometime more romantic. But that was just me.
Syn sighed and continued writing. As he did, he put his left hand on my leg softly, moving it up slowly towards my crotch. My eyes widened as I felt him touch me. Even though it was very, very nice to be touched like that, it was still extremely hard for me to do considering it meant I wanted to jump on him all over again, which I wouldn’t of been surprised if I did at this point. Plus, being touched, anyway by the guy you possibly love wasn’t the best thing in the world when it is during a class where the whole room was silent and you were busy trying to fight back moans of your boyfriend rubbing your clothes cock slowly at first and then faster which made you need to bite your lip hard to stop any noise coming out.
“Matt Sanders, are you okay?” The teacher asked. Syn stopped as I breathed loudly and opened my mouth.
“Yeah miss, just need the toilet, is all.” I replied.
“Do you wanna go then?” She asked and I shook my head. I couldn’t let anyone see my massive erection that Syn’s hand was covering right then.
“It’s okay, I can hold it in for the rest of the class, I just really wanna finish this essay, is all.” I got a few sniggers from some of the stupid popular kids who would rather die than do anything academic, but it was okay, she got off my back about it.
Syn smirked once more and began rubbing me again. I glared at him even though I liked him touching me there very much so. I tried to look like I was getting on with my work, which I was doing, slowly but surely, same as Syn, but what was really on my mind right now was making everyone not notice what me and Syn was doing. The room was silent and if everyone hadn’t been so engrossed with their essays or whatever, we would have been caught in an instant.
There was nothing I could do. I fought back a moan and hit Syn’s hand quietly. He smiled at me with knowing eyes. He must have known I couldn’t handle it because he stopped touching me and moved his hand to my leg. I smiled at it being there. It was kinda like a “he’s mine” kinda thing which I liked a lot. I smiled as I got on with my work. Them two words in my brain which made everything seem so much better.
I’m his.
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Chapter seven
Walking out of my house for school the next day I was greeted by a mixture of optimism, excitement and guilt. I couldn’t wait to see Syn. To wrap him in my arms and tell him he is the one that I want, regardless of how corny that sounds, however I imagined seeing Zacky would be kinda awkward especially if he realises that me and Syn are together.
I was sighing to myself, the hot sun blaring down on my clothes back as I walked along my path. And there, sure enough when I opened the gate was no other then Brian Haner himself, there greeting me with a grin on his face which made me just want to love him more.
“Hey Syn,” I called, walking towards him.
“Hey Matty.” He replied, pulling me closer towards him. His eyes scanning my body hungrily. Mine reminded him of where we were and who may be looking and he soon stopped. Much to my indignation. He smiled at me again as we began walking towards our school.
“Had a good night?” Syn asked me.
“Was alright,” I shrugged, “just the usual night, y’know? You?”
“I was happy for a while.” Syn grinned, turning to look at me, “You know why. And then… just… yeah the usual too.”
“I was happy too.” I told him as we walked through our school dates. I cursed how short the journey took, I wanted to talk to Syn for longer!
Syn smiled at me as we parted way to our own form rooms, which unfortunately we did not share. I waved at him as I made my way to my class, sat down at my seat and thought about him.
***
Two lessons of being without seeing Zacky or Syn passed and I found myself walking back outside to where we sit at break times. As I approached them, Jimmy and Frank were visible, but Zacky and Syn were no where to be seen. I smiled and sat down on the wall, sighing softly and taking out a drink.
“Matt!” I heard someone call behind me as I felt a body jump on me and tackle me to the ground. If it wouldn’t have been so unexpectedly I would have been able to of retained myself, however all I saw was a flash of short black hair and red eyeshadow which automatically told me who it was as I fell to the ground with a loud “oomph”
“Zacky what the fuck?” I cried as he got off me. I looked up at him slightly angrily as I picked myself up. From behind Zacky I could see Syn who was just standing there with a slightly amused expression on his face.
“What?” Zacky grinned as I got up and walked towards Syn, smiling at him and then turning back to Zacky.
“You randomly tackling me.” I grinned.
“What Sanders? I’m not allowed to jump on you anymore? But you always used to let me…” He whined. My eyes widened in shock.
“Hey!” I cried, looking towards Syn who just rolled his eyes. I wasn’t sure who at, me or Zacky.
“Stop being so boring,” Zacky told me, smiling at me with the lips I used to fantasize about so often. My own eyes flickered towards them before I realised what I was doing and stopped. “Ooh, I was gonna ask you anyway Matty, about tonight?”
“Tonight?” I asked. “What about it?”
“Party.” Zacky said simply. “You’re invited. It’s at my house. Seven o clock.”
“Uh… sure?” I replied. I hadn’t heard about this party, but it wasn’t like I was doing anything else.
“Awesome.” Zacky grinned, reaching in and kissing me softly on the cheek. I smiled weakly as he grinned at me, “You’ll finally meet Micky too!” He smiled.
“Oh…great.” I said flatly. I don’t know why I wasn’t more enthused about Mick. I mean, he was the one who got Zacky off my back. Zacky was with him now, he no longer wanted me.
“You’ll love Mick,” Zacky smirked, “He is like me,”
“Great again,” I said in the same flat voice which made Syn smile slightly. I could see him from the corner of my eye.
“I gotta go to the bathroom,” I said quietly to Zacky who just nodded. He was too busy making friends with my friends to notice that Syn followed me.
“That was highly entertaining…” He said quietly as we walked.
“It was… I don’t know what it was.” I replied. “I don’t get him at all.”
“Me either.” Syn said as we walked passed the toilets. “Wait, where are we going?”
“Toilets? They’re skanky.” I replied. “I’m not doing anything in there.”
“Well, that is generally where you usually pee, Sanders.” Syn replied, confusion in his voice.
I smiled and stood still, turning back to him I smirked and raised an eyebrow.
“Who said anything about peeing?” I replied.
Syn didn’t say anything, his reaction was enough answers. His eyes lit up and he fastened his pace, following me wherever to where I was going. I wasn’t even sure he knew.
I turned a few corners, passed a few buildings and students and made my way to where me and him had gone a few days before, behind the back of the science labs. No one was there. It was just me and Syn. When we reached there I looked around quickly to make sure no one was around or could see us from a distance or anyone who was spending their breaks indoors in the science labs, even though that wasn’t allowed, because the school was weary over the fact of kids being in a room with chemicals. It was quite funny, if they thought we would all randomly just chug back bottles of acid, but it’s what they thought.
I turned back and looked at Syn who smiled at me. His smile alone made me want to kiss him, but there was still a few things I needed to talk to him about.
“Zacky doesn’t bother you, does he?” I asked, moving towards him and smiling.
“Not anymore you have broken up with him.” Syn grinned, moving closer and wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Good.” I smiled, pulling him closer. “So I guess you won’t mind if I do this…”
Reaching closer I kissed him roughly on the lips. Pulling away I grinned up him, waiting for a response.
“Of course not.” Syn replied, pulling me closer towards him and grinding his crotch up against mine. A soft moan escaped my lips as he kissed me again. “And don’t forget, later, we can do more.” Excitement and lust flashed through his eyes as he kissed me once more. I blinked and looked up at him.
Of course. He said we could do more now I wasn’t with Zacky. I bit my lip as I looked at him. My eyes flickered along his body. From his face, his tanned skin coupled with the sharp, harsh kohl that rimmed his bright dark eyes, his thin lips which were just perfectly kissable, that often turned into a grin every time I looked his way. And then he had the hair. The hair so soft and touchable, if he dared cut it all off I would probably find the remains of it and glue is back on. So long and dark, I would go into a long simile describing it, but his hair was so completely unique. I don’t think it could be compared to anything.
And that was just his head. Looking down to his chest which was so toned, even at his young age. His arms which were semi-naked. Only a few tattoos were hidden but existing on his grand overpowering arms. My eyes flickered lower towards his crotch. My mouth opened slightly at just the prospect of what lay beneath his underwear. But all I knew, was that I was ready to find out. And even though I was still a virgin, I was a teenage boy. And there was nothing more that I wanted right then to find out what that body standing in front of me felt like. I smiled wondering whether he would be on top or on the bottom. I felt like such a top that I just left it there. I pictured that body beneath me, writhing on the bed, his beautiful hair spread out and in my grasp, my eyes wavered back to his lips as I imagined them parted, soft breaths and moans escaping from his perfect parted lips as he called my name and begged for me to go harder.
Which I would do. I would do what he said to make us both cry out in complete orgasmic bliss before coming, ending it all but of course it didn’t matter, because it was just so amazing and perfect that the fact that it ended was unimportant.
I drifted off as I imagined this. Our first time together. The most perfect first time ever. Where we would both loose our virginities together, and it be the most romantic thing in the world. I smiled thinking about it. I had no idea what Syn was doing at this point, because in my eyes all I could see was the image of me and Syn together. And that… I believed that would be the hottest thing in the world. For anyone to watch.
“Uh, Matty?” I finally heard someone say. I was suddenly snapped out of my fantasy and thrown back into real life. I smiled as I saw Syn looking at me with a confused expression, “What the fuck are you doing? You look high…”
“I..” I began. Was thinking about me and you having sex? “I don’t know. I started daydreaming, don’t worry.” By the looks of the expression on Syn’s face I think I was pretty sure he knew what I was thinking about.
“Daydreaming huh?” Syn smirked, pressing his body against mine causing me to moan and the images remain in my brain. “Judging by this…” placing his hand on my crotch and stroking my erection which had appeared whilst I was daydreaming. I moaned again from the contact, looking up at him, “…I guess I know what you were daydreaming about.” He smiled and lowered his eyes towards my lips, kissing them softly and not removing his hand.
I said nothing. I didn’t want to make my erection worse and end up like it was yesterday. I heard the bell go for next lesson as I sighed and looked at Syn, wanting to ditch class so much just to go back to his house and make my fantasy a reality.
“Tonight?” Syn whispered as he stroked my crotch again, soft moans escaping from my mouth while I looked at him.
“Sure.” I smiled, “I… oh shit. No, I can’t, I am going to Zacky’s party thing… I can’t just blow it off…”
Syn smiled sadly at me as he took his hand away.
“It’s okay,” He shrugged, “Another time…”
“You have no idea how much I want to.” I replied, smiling at him.
“I know.” Syn said, looking into the distance, “We gotta get to class.” His expression changed to loving again as he looked back at me. “We got English.”
“Awesome.” I grinned, even though I knew it anyway, I had been looking forward to it all day.
He smiled again as we began walking back, thoughts of my grandma in my brain to get rid of the boner thoughts of Syn has caused. It soon worked though, and we quickly made it to English and slipped into our seats ready for the lesson.
I groaned as our teacher explained the task. Practising an essay for our final exam. That meant a whole hour of silence while we rehearsed the essay we needed to write. I looked at Syn sadly, he most probably knowing what I was thinking, he generally usually did.
I sighed and took the pen in my hand and began writing. Luckily we sat right at the back, so no one noticed when Syn slipped a spare piece of paper in between both our papers which we were writing on. I pretended not to notice as he wrote on it, pretending it was his own work.
Do you seriously think I’d go a whole lesson without not talking to you at all?
Sure we won’t get caught for this Syn? I mean, it could be seen as cheating…
I don’t care, I just wanted to talk to you.
Aww, Syn did I ever tell you how amazing you were?
No. But you can tell me if you wanna… =)
Haha, well, you just are. Come on, I chose you over Zacky, which was something I never thought I would do in a million years, you have no idea how I used to be with him. That’s something I guess…
It is. Even though he is a jerk and I have absolutely no idea why you like him…
Hey! Well, actually… you’re kinda right.
Damn straight… or not. Haha. But yeah, I hope he is happy with this Micky dude. At least that means I get you all to myself…
I wouldn’t want it any other way babe. I really do think I lov-
“You two passing notes?” My teacher called as I hid the paper.
“No.” Syn said in his usual casual tone. “We were just both using that as rough paper to plan our answer, is all.”
I smiled at what he said. The teacher bought it and didn’t say anything else on the matter. Me and Syn however was pissed that we couldn’t talk. He also looked like he wanted to talk to me real bad about something. I had a feeling it was the fact that I almost wrote “I love you” before I got stopped by the teacher. I guess in a way I was glad she did. I would have preferred it be said sometime more romantic. But that was just me.
Syn sighed and continued writing. As he did, he put his left hand on my leg softly, moving it up slowly towards my crotch. My eyes widened as I felt him touch me. Even though it was very, very nice to be touched like that, it was still extremely hard for me to do considering it meant I wanted to jump on him all over again, which I wouldn’t of been surprised if I did at this point. Plus, being touched, anyway by the guy you possibly love wasn’t the best thing in the world when it is during a class where the whole room was silent and you were busy trying to fight back moans of your boyfriend rubbing your clothes cock slowly at first and then faster which made you need to bite your lip hard to stop any noise coming out.
“Matt Sanders, are you okay?” The teacher asked. Syn stopped as I breathed loudly and opened my mouth.
“Yeah miss, just need the toilet, is all.” I replied.
“Do you wanna go then?” She asked and I shook my head. I couldn’t let anyone see my massive erection that Syn’s hand was covering right then.
“It’s okay, I can hold it in for the rest of the class, I just really wanna finish this essay, is all.” I got a few sniggers from some of the stupid popular kids who would rather die than do anything academic, but it was okay, she got off my back about it.
Syn smirked once more and began rubbing me again. I glared at him even though I liked him touching me there very much so. I tried to look like I was getting on with my work, which I was doing, slowly but surely, same as Syn, but what was really on my mind right now was making everyone not notice what me and Syn was doing. The room was silent and if everyone hadn’t been so engrossed with their essays or whatever, we would have been caught in an instant.
There was nothing I could do. I fought back a moan and hit Syn’s hand quietly. He smiled at me with knowing eyes. He must have known I couldn’t handle it because he stopped touching me and moved his hand to my leg. I smiled at it being there. It was kinda like a “he’s mine” kinda thing which I liked a lot. I smiled as I got on with my work. Them two words in my brain which made everything seem so much better.
I’m his.
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Chapter seven