Always loving you
Chapter 05
“Mmm Syn…” I whispered as I kissed Syn for fifth time that evening. My body crawling on top of him slowly as I brushed my hand slowly through his hair.
“Oh god Matt,” I heard him whimper from below me, moving his arms around my body, his hard-on pressed against mine, causing me to moan softly as I continued to kiss him.
We continued kissing and touching each other on his bed, not wanting to stop. All memories and thoughts of Zacky disappeared from my brain. At that point, all I cared about and wanted was Syn.
I had came home with him again after school and talked to him for a while about what had happened with Zacky. He had told me the usual about how I shouldn’t even be with him. Part of me knew it was true. Actually, most of me did. I didn’t like him anywhere near as much as I liked Syn. So why was Zacky my “boyfriend” and not the guy who I actually like?
I didn’t have time to think about that right now. All I could think about was the fact that Syn was right there. And he was hot. And I liked him a lot. And then there was the best part: he liked me too. And treated me a hell of a lot better than how Zacky treated me. And that was just amazing to me right then.
“Syn I want you so bad right now…” I whimpered as I felt our erections rub together causing me to moan out loud. I wasn’t entirely sure what I met by that statement, but it came spilling out of my lips before I had time to stop and process what I had said. I continued to kiss Syn after I uttered it, hoping that he didn’t hear but when he pulled away from the kiss to look at me in the eyes I could tell straight away that he heard me.
“What do you mean, you want me really bad?” he asked.
“I… I don’t know…” I replied. To be honest I didn’t.
Syn just grinned, the typical reaction for him. He smiled and reached for my neck and started to kiss me there.
“I want you so bad too.” He moaned into the kisses, “For a long, long time.”
I could say nothing. My dick felt like it was going to explode at this point, it was throbbing so bad. I wanted more than anything to let Syn sort it out, but never before had I let a guy touch my penis before. But never before had I been doing what I was doing now, on top of a hot guy, and making out with him passionately.
“But…” He whispered, “If you want me. You’re gonna have to prove it to me.”
“How?” I replied, “I’ll do anything…” It was so un- M Shadows like of me to say that. So… desperate and hungry. Usually people would be the ones begging me. Not the other way around. But in the situation I was in, no one could blame me. I had a hot guy under me, my cock aching and me just wanting to rip off my clothes and fuck him right there and then in his room.
“Zacky.” He replied. My heart sank when I realised what I had to do. “I’m not gonna do anything with you while you two are still dating,” He told me. All I could do was sigh. I knew this was right. But I didn’t know if I would be able to end whatever I had with Zacky. Would he even let me end it? All this was running through my brain when he moaned softly and kissed me again, pressing his hips up against mine, causing sensations to fill my entire body and my cock only to ache more. I must have been so blinded by it all that I let slip the worst sentence I could.
“If…you won’t do anything with me while I am with Zacky, what are you doing now?” I moaned out while continuing to kiss Syn. He froze when I said this and pulled away quickly. Grinning up at me, my eyebrows furrowed in confusement.
“You’re right.” Syn smiled, moving up and pushing me off him. “I can’t even do this. Thanks for telling me Matt, else I would have forgotten and let you kiss and touch me even though I said I wouldn’t so long as you’re with Zacky.”
I glared at him. Images on my head of me and Syn together weren’t going away so therefore nor did my hard-on which was getting ever so the more painful. I whimpered slightly as I sat on his bed.
“Just do me a favour,” Syn smirked, noticing the position I was in, which he no doubt was in too but wasn’t letting it show, “Think of us two together. Our hot, sweaty bodies being pressed together. You pounding into to me and I kiss you softly, moaning your name in pure pleasure which you retaliate with by harder thrusts and moans. Think of that will you.”
I gasped, not being able to hold it any longer, I had to sort this out soon or else… I had no idea what would happen, I had never been in it so badly before. Syn just grinned and looked at me and shook his head. He nodded towards my crotch which I would not be surprised if it was bleeding, it was hurting so much right then.
“Want me to sort that out for you?” He whispered. Those eight words hit me quicker than any other sentence ever did and I found myself nodding insanely, biting my lip and crying out his name. At this point, even if he would just touch me I’d expect to blow my load. I watched as Syn smirked once more and crawled towards me. He pushed me down slowly so I was laying flat on his bed. I moaned softly as he unbuttoned my jeans quickly with his fingers, causing me to gasp more. He hadn’t even touched me yet but I felt so sensitive that I didn’t even know what was going to happen. He looked at my face once more, asking with my eyes what I wanted him to do. All I could reply with was a whimper which I suppose told him everything he needed to know as without a second thought he was pulling my jeans down slowly, his eyebrows raising when he saw the size of my bulge in my underwear.
He ran one finger across my crotch slowly which caused me to moan loudly, even just from one light touch. He must have guessed just touching it would make me come, so without a second though, he pulled down my underwear to around my thighs and pulled my erection out. He cocked an eyebrow over the size and blinked several times as I moaned from his touches. At the time, I didn’t think about the fact this was the first time Syn had seen it or it was the first time I had let someone touch it, all I cared about was Syn doing something about it.
He must have noticed me moaning and whispering his name. My eyes pleading with him to do something and fast. One of my hand gripped hold of him as he smiled at me before stroking it softly. This caused me to gasp. It was insane. I never would think a guy just touching my cock this softly could cause me to feel this much. It must have been because of how worked up I was, how painful my hard-on was, and the fact that this was the first time anyone had ever touched me there. I didn’t know what it was, but all I knew was that I didn’t want him to stop.
“Ohh god Syn…” I moaned as he ran his hand along my length, my toes curled from the sensations that gripped my entire body. My eyes automatically shut as I relaxed on his bed, but when I opened one slowly to look at the guy who was doing this to me, I couldn’t help but grin. He seemed amazed that just a little touch could do so much to me. He kept touching me and then looking towards me to watch my expression in awe. I would of probably cracked up had I been in the position to do so.
“Please Syn, don’t stop…” I muttered, my fingernails clawed onto his bed sheets as he continued to touch me. He bit his lip as he wrapped his smooth hand around my cock, which caused me to gasp from the contact. He looked at my expression and grinned a little before moving his hand into a steady pace, this caused me to cry out for him, a familiar feeling of when I was doing this to myself creeping up in my stomach. I bit my lick trying to hold back my orgasm. I didn’t want this to end, not this quickly.
Syn just continued to stare at me as he continued to pump my shaft, getting faster and faster, which caused me to cry out and grip onto the sheets more. I tried to hold back what was coming but after a few more intoxicating moments I knew I couldn’t delay it much longer.
“Oh God Brian!” I almost screamed, holding onto the sheets and thrashing against them and the biggest orgasm I have ever had (given the only ones I had gotten was ones I had given myself) rushed through my body, eventually leading into a loud cry, followed by me spilling into Syn’s hand as fast as I ever had before.
I laid back on the bed and looked up at Syn who was just sat there, speechless. Looking at my spent cock and then back towards me.
“What?” I panted, smiling up at him.
“I… I can’t believe I just did that.” Syn whispered.
“Uh, why?” I replied, confused.
“I just… can’t. I never had before and…yeah.” Syn shrugged, hading me tissues that he kept at the side of his bed. I guessed why.
“Well,” I smiled as I cleaned myself up. “You did so well for your first time, seriously. That was… just amazing.” I smiled up at Syn who looked down at me and grinned.
“Thanks.” Syn replied. “I was kinda shocked by how well you seemed to take it…”
“I noticed.” I grinned. I blinked and looked up at Syn who was sat up beside me. “Thanks by the way. So much for that. I think you could tell how much I needed it. So… thanks.”
“You’re welcome.” Syn replied smiled down at me as I panted softly and looked back up at him. I bit my lip, wanting to say something I knew I shouldn’t. But deep in my heart I kinda thought it was true. I love you I decided it would be better off if I didn’t say it. My heart told me it was true but my brain disagreed, it told me I wasn’t even dating Syn. That I couldn’t even love him. I knew him for not all that long and had only just realised my feelings for him yesterday. It was impossible to love that fast.
But looking at him, smiling at his smirk he gave me when he helped me up from laying down on his bed, thinking about how much he meant to me and how much more I’d wanna be with him and not Zacky caused me to think that it might be love.
I tried not to think about it too much as I sat up and looked at him. I grinned and couldn’t help myself from pouncing on him and kissing roughly on the lips. Fuck not doing anything until I ended whatever the hell I had with Zacky, I wanted him now.
Syn, unfortunately seemed to remember what I had promised him and pulled away immediately.
“Not until Zacky.” He whispered, pressing my nose softly with his finger. He grinned at me and stood up from the bed. “I think you should go.” He muttered, not making eye contact. “I am alone in the house for another few hours. If you stay I would be tempted to do things that I really shouldn’t.” He blushed slightly as he smiled at me. I was about to protest but changed my mind and then nodded sadly.
“You’re right.” I smiled at him. “And I will tell Zacky tomorrow, okay? And then I’ll be back round here or something afterwards to… celebrate, okay?”
“Okay.” Syn grinned, “My parents are always out anyway, so whatever. You’re welcome round anytime.” He winked at me as I got up from his bed and grabbed my school bag.
“Good.” I replied, “Cos you will certainly be seeing me around more, whether you like it or not.” I laughed as I smiled at him. He followed me out of his bedroom, kissing the back of my neck as he did, causing me to get goosebumps all down my back. I tried to refrain the urge of pushing him back into the room, throwing him down onto his bed and making wild, passionate love to him right there and then by thinking about the other task I had at hand: telling Zacky.
“That is definitely what I wanted to hear.” Syn grinned as he leaned on his doorframe. His arms folded, and a slightly amused expression on his face. He must know what I was thinking at the time. Probably because of the amount of times I looked back at him and then back at his room and bit my lip. I tried not to be too obvious but I think he definitely already knew how much I wanted him right then. And it was okay, because he wanted me too. So it wasn’t all that bad, I suppose.
“Are you going to leave then?” He smirked as I realised I was just stood there, gawping at him no doubt. I blushed and turned around.
“Uh, sorry.” I replied, feeling my ass being scanned by Syn’s eyes even though he was behind me. I turned around quickly to try and prove my theory, which was confirmed when I noticed his eyes flicker from around my ass height up back towards my eyes, his grin wiped as soon as he noticed me turn.
I winked at him, which he grinned back to, licking his lips softly as we had some sort of crazy silent seduction outside of his door above his stairs. I moaned softly, we both knowing how much we wanted to go back into that room and continue what we were doing and more. Which I knew I couldn’t. so instead I finally turned back around and walked down Syn’s carpeted stairs. I looked back at him grinning at me. I sighed as I reluctantly walked out of his front door.
I heard him call bye as I did so. I muttered some kind of reply. It was strange the way just not being with him made me sad. I don’t think anyone had any idea how much I wanted to turn around and run back into his house and grab him and kiss him. I pulled my hood up over my head and began walking back to my house. Small spots of rain fell down on me as I carried on walking, some kind of force trying to pull me back to Syn’s house. I resisted. Just. And walked up my path way to my house and walked inside.
After about an hour of getting changed, explaining to my mother where I had been, chores and the changing of my underwear, I finally found my laptop and logged onto MSN desperately hoping to find Zacky on there. He had asked me for my address earlier in the day and I had given it to him. He told me he was almost always online talking to hot guys in bands or whatever he had told me. I was busy daydreaming about Syn to listen properly, if I remember correctly.
As soon as I signed in, a new conversation popped up. I knew immediately it was from Zacky. Luckily, unlike everyone else he didn’t have a ridiculous screen name and was something I could automatically know who it was, same as Syn’s.
Zacky Vengeance says: MATTYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
M Shadows says: Whoa, hey Zacky!
Zacky Vengeance says: Dude, where have you been? I’ve been waiting for you to come on for hours!
M Shadows says : Oh… I went round Syn’s house.
Zacky Vengeance says: Oh. Uh, why?
M Shadows says: Uh, cos he is my friend, duh. People go round their friend’s houses y’know.
Zacky Vengeance says: Hey, no need to get angry, just asking.
M Shadows says: I wasn’t getting angry.
Zacky Vengeance says: Well okay. So long as you weren’t fucking him or anything, you’re just friends, right?
M Shadows says: No we didn’t fuck. And what does it matter? It’s not like me and you are dating.
Zacky Vengeance says: Good. And… umm Matty, I thought we were going out.
M Shadows says: Well, I haven’t said anything about it.
Zacky Vengeance says: But… I thought you liked me.
M Shadows says: I.. I do. But… I don’t wanna go out with you. I want us just to be friends Zacky. =)
Zacky Vengeance says: Well, I want more.
M Shadows says: Well, I don’t. I’m sorry. Don’t worry though, I’m sure there are plenty of people out there who would wanna date you.
Zacky Vengeance says: Meh.
M Shadows says: What?
Zacky Vengeance says: …
M Shadows says: Zacky what?
Zacky Vengeance says: ….
M Shadows has just sent Zacky Vengeance a nudge
Zacky Vengeance says: Woo I gotta date with a hot guy tomorrow night. Mick Morris his name is. He plays bass and in a band. Haha, I’m happy now.
M Shadows says: Umm… great?
Zacky Vengeance says: It is. He is hot. Anyway, gotta go now Matty, gotta go find some people. =) See you later <3
M Shadows says: Okay have fun! Bye Zacky!
Zacky Vengeance has logged off
What the hell? I tell him I don’t wanna date him then he just goes off and finds some random date? What the hell?
Well, whatever. At least it means I can date Syn now and it all will be okay.
Pulling out my phone from my jeans I sent a text message to him, knowing he wasn’t online.
Broke whatever the fuck I had off with Zacky. He complained at first but then got a new date and flaunted him in front of me. Typical I guess. Talk to you later. Matty x
I smiled and sent the text. The first time that I can remember putting kisses in my messages. I grinned and walked away from my laptop and laid down on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I blinked a few times and thought about what sex with Syn would be like. I don’t think I could bottom. I have heard all about it and I really can’t deal with pain. Even if it is just a little bit at first. And the image of Syn writhing under me, panting and sweating and moaning my name. I bit my lip and tried to think of other things, before my erection returned. Luckily, the thoughts were pushed out of my brain when I heard my phone go off. Getting up from bed, I went over to the laptop where I left the phone. Grinning, I saw the message was from Syn. I flopped down onto my bed while reading it.
Awesome! I’m so glad you did. Sorry if you felt I pressured you into it though, but him getting a date just after you doing it is proof enough isn’t it how he is? And now I can’t stop smiling....Lol. Wish you could come round so we can celebrate. ;) But we can’t now. Tomorrow maybe? Love Brian xxx
I smiled as soon as I read it. And then read the “Love Brian xxx” part over and over. I tried not to smile again but it was like the same force that had tried to push me to go to Syn’s house was there in my mouth muscles, making me smile and not stop. I was happy. It wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t been in a while, and now I was.
Laying back down and looking at my white ceiling I drifted off fantasizing about me and Syn. It was lame, but I don’t care. Everyone got to do this as teenagers and I never did. I was too busy mourning over the loss of Zacky to even bother.
But it was different now. I smiled to myself thinking of the situation I was in.
I have Syn.
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Chapter six
“Mmm Syn…” I whispered as I kissed Syn for fifth time that evening. My body crawling on top of him slowly as I brushed my hand slowly through his hair.
“Oh god Matt,” I heard him whimper from below me, moving his arms around my body, his hard-on pressed against mine, causing me to moan softly as I continued to kiss him.
We continued kissing and touching each other on his bed, not wanting to stop. All memories and thoughts of Zacky disappeared from my brain. At that point, all I cared about and wanted was Syn.
I had came home with him again after school and talked to him for a while about what had happened with Zacky. He had told me the usual about how I shouldn’t even be with him. Part of me knew it was true. Actually, most of me did. I didn’t like him anywhere near as much as I liked Syn. So why was Zacky my “boyfriend” and not the guy who I actually like?
I didn’t have time to think about that right now. All I could think about was the fact that Syn was right there. And he was hot. And I liked him a lot. And then there was the best part: he liked me too. And treated me a hell of a lot better than how Zacky treated me. And that was just amazing to me right then.
“Syn I want you so bad right now…” I whimpered as I felt our erections rub together causing me to moan out loud. I wasn’t entirely sure what I met by that statement, but it came spilling out of my lips before I had time to stop and process what I had said. I continued to kiss Syn after I uttered it, hoping that he didn’t hear but when he pulled away from the kiss to look at me in the eyes I could tell straight away that he heard me.
“What do you mean, you want me really bad?” he asked.
“I… I don’t know…” I replied. To be honest I didn’t.
Syn just grinned, the typical reaction for him. He smiled and reached for my neck and started to kiss me there.
“I want you so bad too.” He moaned into the kisses, “For a long, long time.”
I could say nothing. My dick felt like it was going to explode at this point, it was throbbing so bad. I wanted more than anything to let Syn sort it out, but never before had I let a guy touch my penis before. But never before had I been doing what I was doing now, on top of a hot guy, and making out with him passionately.
“But…” He whispered, “If you want me. You’re gonna have to prove it to me.”
“How?” I replied, “I’ll do anything…” It was so un- M Shadows like of me to say that. So… desperate and hungry. Usually people would be the ones begging me. Not the other way around. But in the situation I was in, no one could blame me. I had a hot guy under me, my cock aching and me just wanting to rip off my clothes and fuck him right there and then in his room.
“Zacky.” He replied. My heart sank when I realised what I had to do. “I’m not gonna do anything with you while you two are still dating,” He told me. All I could do was sigh. I knew this was right. But I didn’t know if I would be able to end whatever I had with Zacky. Would he even let me end it? All this was running through my brain when he moaned softly and kissed me again, pressing his hips up against mine, causing sensations to fill my entire body and my cock only to ache more. I must have been so blinded by it all that I let slip the worst sentence I could.
“If…you won’t do anything with me while I am with Zacky, what are you doing now?” I moaned out while continuing to kiss Syn. He froze when I said this and pulled away quickly. Grinning up at me, my eyebrows furrowed in confusement.
“You’re right.” Syn smiled, moving up and pushing me off him. “I can’t even do this. Thanks for telling me Matt, else I would have forgotten and let you kiss and touch me even though I said I wouldn’t so long as you’re with Zacky.”
I glared at him. Images on my head of me and Syn together weren’t going away so therefore nor did my hard-on which was getting ever so the more painful. I whimpered slightly as I sat on his bed.
“Just do me a favour,” Syn smirked, noticing the position I was in, which he no doubt was in too but wasn’t letting it show, “Think of us two together. Our hot, sweaty bodies being pressed together. You pounding into to me and I kiss you softly, moaning your name in pure pleasure which you retaliate with by harder thrusts and moans. Think of that will you.”
I gasped, not being able to hold it any longer, I had to sort this out soon or else… I had no idea what would happen, I had never been in it so badly before. Syn just grinned and looked at me and shook his head. He nodded towards my crotch which I would not be surprised if it was bleeding, it was hurting so much right then.
“Want me to sort that out for you?” He whispered. Those eight words hit me quicker than any other sentence ever did and I found myself nodding insanely, biting my lip and crying out his name. At this point, even if he would just touch me I’d expect to blow my load. I watched as Syn smirked once more and crawled towards me. He pushed me down slowly so I was laying flat on his bed. I moaned softly as he unbuttoned my jeans quickly with his fingers, causing me to gasp more. He hadn’t even touched me yet but I felt so sensitive that I didn’t even know what was going to happen. He looked at my face once more, asking with my eyes what I wanted him to do. All I could reply with was a whimper which I suppose told him everything he needed to know as without a second thought he was pulling my jeans down slowly, his eyebrows raising when he saw the size of my bulge in my underwear.
He ran one finger across my crotch slowly which caused me to moan loudly, even just from one light touch. He must have guessed just touching it would make me come, so without a second though, he pulled down my underwear to around my thighs and pulled my erection out. He cocked an eyebrow over the size and blinked several times as I moaned from his touches. At the time, I didn’t think about the fact this was the first time Syn had seen it or it was the first time I had let someone touch it, all I cared about was Syn doing something about it.
He must have noticed me moaning and whispering his name. My eyes pleading with him to do something and fast. One of my hand gripped hold of him as he smiled at me before stroking it softly. This caused me to gasp. It was insane. I never would think a guy just touching my cock this softly could cause me to feel this much. It must have been because of how worked up I was, how painful my hard-on was, and the fact that this was the first time anyone had ever touched me there. I didn’t know what it was, but all I knew was that I didn’t want him to stop.
“Ohh god Syn…” I moaned as he ran his hand along my length, my toes curled from the sensations that gripped my entire body. My eyes automatically shut as I relaxed on his bed, but when I opened one slowly to look at the guy who was doing this to me, I couldn’t help but grin. He seemed amazed that just a little touch could do so much to me. He kept touching me and then looking towards me to watch my expression in awe. I would of probably cracked up had I been in the position to do so.
“Please Syn, don’t stop…” I muttered, my fingernails clawed onto his bed sheets as he continued to touch me. He bit his lip as he wrapped his smooth hand around my cock, which caused me to gasp from the contact. He looked at my expression and grinned a little before moving his hand into a steady pace, this caused me to cry out for him, a familiar feeling of when I was doing this to myself creeping up in my stomach. I bit my lick trying to hold back my orgasm. I didn’t want this to end, not this quickly.
Syn just continued to stare at me as he continued to pump my shaft, getting faster and faster, which caused me to cry out and grip onto the sheets more. I tried to hold back what was coming but after a few more intoxicating moments I knew I couldn’t delay it much longer.
“Oh God Brian!” I almost screamed, holding onto the sheets and thrashing against them and the biggest orgasm I have ever had (given the only ones I had gotten was ones I had given myself) rushed through my body, eventually leading into a loud cry, followed by me spilling into Syn’s hand as fast as I ever had before.
I laid back on the bed and looked up at Syn who was just sat there, speechless. Looking at my spent cock and then back towards me.
“What?” I panted, smiling up at him.
“I… I can’t believe I just did that.” Syn whispered.
“Uh, why?” I replied, confused.
“I just… can’t. I never had before and…yeah.” Syn shrugged, hading me tissues that he kept at the side of his bed. I guessed why.
“Well,” I smiled as I cleaned myself up. “You did so well for your first time, seriously. That was… just amazing.” I smiled up at Syn who looked down at me and grinned.
“Thanks.” Syn replied. “I was kinda shocked by how well you seemed to take it…”
“I noticed.” I grinned. I blinked and looked up at Syn who was sat up beside me. “Thanks by the way. So much for that. I think you could tell how much I needed it. So… thanks.”
“You’re welcome.” Syn replied smiled down at me as I panted softly and looked back up at him. I bit my lip, wanting to say something I knew I shouldn’t. But deep in my heart I kinda thought it was true. I love you I decided it would be better off if I didn’t say it. My heart told me it was true but my brain disagreed, it told me I wasn’t even dating Syn. That I couldn’t even love him. I knew him for not all that long and had only just realised my feelings for him yesterday. It was impossible to love that fast.
But looking at him, smiling at his smirk he gave me when he helped me up from laying down on his bed, thinking about how much he meant to me and how much more I’d wanna be with him and not Zacky caused me to think that it might be love.
I tried not to think about it too much as I sat up and looked at him. I grinned and couldn’t help myself from pouncing on him and kissing roughly on the lips. Fuck not doing anything until I ended whatever the hell I had with Zacky, I wanted him now.
Syn, unfortunately seemed to remember what I had promised him and pulled away immediately.
“Not until Zacky.” He whispered, pressing my nose softly with his finger. He grinned at me and stood up from the bed. “I think you should go.” He muttered, not making eye contact. “I am alone in the house for another few hours. If you stay I would be tempted to do things that I really shouldn’t.” He blushed slightly as he smiled at me. I was about to protest but changed my mind and then nodded sadly.
“You’re right.” I smiled at him. “And I will tell Zacky tomorrow, okay? And then I’ll be back round here or something afterwards to… celebrate, okay?”
“Okay.” Syn grinned, “My parents are always out anyway, so whatever. You’re welcome round anytime.” He winked at me as I got up from his bed and grabbed my school bag.
“Good.” I replied, “Cos you will certainly be seeing me around more, whether you like it or not.” I laughed as I smiled at him. He followed me out of his bedroom, kissing the back of my neck as he did, causing me to get goosebumps all down my back. I tried to refrain the urge of pushing him back into the room, throwing him down onto his bed and making wild, passionate love to him right there and then by thinking about the other task I had at hand: telling Zacky.
“That is definitely what I wanted to hear.” Syn grinned as he leaned on his doorframe. His arms folded, and a slightly amused expression on his face. He must know what I was thinking at the time. Probably because of the amount of times I looked back at him and then back at his room and bit my lip. I tried not to be too obvious but I think he definitely already knew how much I wanted him right then. And it was okay, because he wanted me too. So it wasn’t all that bad, I suppose.
“Are you going to leave then?” He smirked as I realised I was just stood there, gawping at him no doubt. I blushed and turned around.
“Uh, sorry.” I replied, feeling my ass being scanned by Syn’s eyes even though he was behind me. I turned around quickly to try and prove my theory, which was confirmed when I noticed his eyes flicker from around my ass height up back towards my eyes, his grin wiped as soon as he noticed me turn.
I winked at him, which he grinned back to, licking his lips softly as we had some sort of crazy silent seduction outside of his door above his stairs. I moaned softly, we both knowing how much we wanted to go back into that room and continue what we were doing and more. Which I knew I couldn’t. so instead I finally turned back around and walked down Syn’s carpeted stairs. I looked back at him grinning at me. I sighed as I reluctantly walked out of his front door.
I heard him call bye as I did so. I muttered some kind of reply. It was strange the way just not being with him made me sad. I don’t think anyone had any idea how much I wanted to turn around and run back into his house and grab him and kiss him. I pulled my hood up over my head and began walking back to my house. Small spots of rain fell down on me as I carried on walking, some kind of force trying to pull me back to Syn’s house. I resisted. Just. And walked up my path way to my house and walked inside.
After about an hour of getting changed, explaining to my mother where I had been, chores and the changing of my underwear, I finally found my laptop and logged onto MSN desperately hoping to find Zacky on there. He had asked me for my address earlier in the day and I had given it to him. He told me he was almost always online talking to hot guys in bands or whatever he had told me. I was busy daydreaming about Syn to listen properly, if I remember correctly.
As soon as I signed in, a new conversation popped up. I knew immediately it was from Zacky. Luckily, unlike everyone else he didn’t have a ridiculous screen name and was something I could automatically know who it was, same as Syn’s.
Zacky Vengeance says: MATTYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
M Shadows says: Whoa, hey Zacky!
Zacky Vengeance says: Dude, where have you been? I’ve been waiting for you to come on for hours!
M Shadows says : Oh… I went round Syn’s house.
Zacky Vengeance says: Oh. Uh, why?
M Shadows says: Uh, cos he is my friend, duh. People go round their friend’s houses y’know.
Zacky Vengeance says: Hey, no need to get angry, just asking.
M Shadows says: I wasn’t getting angry.
Zacky Vengeance says: Well okay. So long as you weren’t fucking him or anything, you’re just friends, right?
M Shadows says: No we didn’t fuck. And what does it matter? It’s not like me and you are dating.
Zacky Vengeance says: Good. And… umm Matty, I thought we were going out.
M Shadows says: Well, I haven’t said anything about it.
Zacky Vengeance says: But… I thought you liked me.
M Shadows says: I.. I do. But… I don’t wanna go out with you. I want us just to be friends Zacky. =)
Zacky Vengeance says: Well, I want more.
M Shadows says: Well, I don’t. I’m sorry. Don’t worry though, I’m sure there are plenty of people out there who would wanna date you.
Zacky Vengeance says: Meh.
M Shadows says: What?
Zacky Vengeance says: …
M Shadows says: Zacky what?
Zacky Vengeance says: ….
M Shadows has just sent Zacky Vengeance a nudge
Zacky Vengeance says: Woo I gotta date with a hot guy tomorrow night. Mick Morris his name is. He plays bass and in a band. Haha, I’m happy now.
M Shadows says: Umm… great?
Zacky Vengeance says: It is. He is hot. Anyway, gotta go now Matty, gotta go find some people. =) See you later <3
M Shadows says: Okay have fun! Bye Zacky!
Zacky Vengeance has logged off
What the hell? I tell him I don’t wanna date him then he just goes off and finds some random date? What the hell?
Well, whatever. At least it means I can date Syn now and it all will be okay.
Pulling out my phone from my jeans I sent a text message to him, knowing he wasn’t online.
Broke whatever the fuck I had off with Zacky. He complained at first but then got a new date and flaunted him in front of me. Typical I guess. Talk to you later. Matty x
I smiled and sent the text. The first time that I can remember putting kisses in my messages. I grinned and walked away from my laptop and laid down on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I blinked a few times and thought about what sex with Syn would be like. I don’t think I could bottom. I have heard all about it and I really can’t deal with pain. Even if it is just a little bit at first. And the image of Syn writhing under me, panting and sweating and moaning my name. I bit my lip and tried to think of other things, before my erection returned. Luckily, the thoughts were pushed out of my brain when I heard my phone go off. Getting up from bed, I went over to the laptop where I left the phone. Grinning, I saw the message was from Syn. I flopped down onto my bed while reading it.
Awesome! I’m so glad you did. Sorry if you felt I pressured you into it though, but him getting a date just after you doing it is proof enough isn’t it how he is? And now I can’t stop smiling....Lol. Wish you could come round so we can celebrate. ;) But we can’t now. Tomorrow maybe? Love Brian xxx
I smiled as soon as I read it. And then read the “Love Brian xxx” part over and over. I tried not to smile again but it was like the same force that had tried to push me to go to Syn’s house was there in my mouth muscles, making me smile and not stop. I was happy. It wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t been in a while, and now I was.
Laying back down and looking at my white ceiling I drifted off fantasizing about me and Syn. It was lame, but I don’t care. Everyone got to do this as teenagers and I never did. I was too busy mourning over the loss of Zacky to even bother.
But it was different now. I smiled to myself thinking of the situation I was in.
I have Syn.
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