Why does it seem that I am meant to fail in this world??? Is it because I am a freak? Is it because I have willpower until I start slipping away? What the Fuck is wrong with me??? I need someone to talk to, someone that i can confide in. I hurt its like my inner hatred is taking over this souless body that is mine.

What hell is wrong with me??? I just wanna give up on everything that i have done in my and what I am trying to do now. Anyways Here is my favorite song by slipknot ( Read more... )

Everyday I wonder why i try so hard even though I know that I am going to fall flat on my fucking face!? I have tried so hard to keep my mind off of how I am going to get to Arizona this summer to see Cayla and Amber. Everyone keeps putting me down about the way I dress, the music I listen to, the TV shows I watch, and the video games I play. ( Read more... )

i don't why i feel this way. is it because i miss my friends amber and cayla? maybe its because i got kicked out of my house last night and now i have to find a place to stay. i hate my life so much i just wanna die. i haven't heard from amber in like 2 weeks and haven't talked to cayla in like a month or two. school sucks so bad i just wanna drop ( Read more... )

amber and cayla i miss you guys!!! i am trying everything to come down there this summer.

What the hell is wrong with me? I cannot see where the fuck I am going in life. School is driving me fucking nuts. We got this rule if we are tardy once we get a detention. How FUCKING gay is that? I don't know I just need a little push in the direction I need to go. I believe there is something out there but its hard to believe that only one ( Read more... )

here is a poem my idol jeff hardy wrote and its what my life and i feel like ( Read more... )

STILL NO WORD FROM CAYLA! I AM SO HAPPY CUZ I GET TO GO SEE MANSON ON THE 11TH OF NOVEMBER. I AM SITTING 3RD ROW. HAHAHA IN YOUR FACES

still no word from cayla. she is still upset and i understand how hard it is to believe me.

School sux so bad. Me and Savanna Vega have been talking about seeing each other ar my friend Dustin's house because I have a project I have to do for first hour. IT SUX. Cayla hasn't told me anything yet so no new news on that. Savanna told me she liked me but not like that because she doesn't know me that well.