its been a while... so i suppose i should catch u all up.. skip the next couple lines if u dont care ( Read more... )

i tend to want to stay away from the writing and the confessing of my feelings crap but someone told me i should let every one know im still alive ( Read more... )

morning i think, not sure where i'm at any more, i think im homw but its all blured the warp bettween my mind and the reality is no longer separated, its just there ( Read more... )

yo.
thought i would check in not much going on save the usual,
my hit list is now up to 4 people but thats ok cause i can get them all when i turn 50,
i like shiny things that go boom, or shiny sharp things none of wich people will give to me, .
sadly enough my life has nothing to really right about i am in in a bliss happy slow state of me.

school
home
school home
boyfriend?
feelings?
sober?
WHAT?
mental over load............
=9.... now... that go's there and that i now that go's there. but you where do you go?

A 5-year-old acting like a 20 year old stuck in a 17 year olds body. Scared of the world around her never sure if she walks out side what will happen. Will they come and take her away or will she live to see another day. A tear falls silently down her cheek; a quiet wish that maybe something will save her from the endless torment that never seems ( Read more... )

I think, ponder really, why dose it happen to me? The pain, the idea that light wont happen and wont come. Then i remember i brought this fate upon myself. unwilling to admit that i "fucked up" some where, i try to place blame. It doesn't work. So i come to the conclusion that it is my fault for where i am in life that is, if i hadn't done that ( Read more... )

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i just had the most awesomeist day ever! my friend AZ came and picked me up and took me out. it was soooo cool! i had so much fun! we drove to the park and in to town and than like it was soooooooo coooooolllllll ( Read more... )

Empty spaces fill me up with holes ( Read more... )