i scream inside ( Read more... )

I feel incredible. For the first time, I can be in complete darkness without fear. ::deep breath in, deep breath out::   i reluctantly let go of a friend whom I only knew for a moment. It was not easy. I enjoyed his company very much and the clarity of his company was refreshing. Where as i understand why, I am left wondering if I should even ( Read more... )

I open my eyes ( Read more... )

oh good....there's that sinking feeling again. that lump in the throat that tells me i should have known better. no matter. that feeling has become an old pair of jeans that fit perfectly. i suck at this game of Life. i would like to stop playing, but i am told that is not an option.  i don't like the rules, i don't like the layout of the board, i ( Read more... )

I know that i shouldn't be ( Read more... )

phew, that was close....
that's better, i feel like myself again. i almost lost something there. i caught it just in time. i am so thankful that even when i feel like nothing, my friends ( Read more... )

Seem ripping the Cosmic cloth of the connection between us ( Read more... )

I'm not depressed so much as i am done. i think my time is up on "helping" people. i don't exactly think that i do anything anyways. Sometimes i feel like i am needed, but not wanted. i don't actually care too much, really. i just don't feel like putting myself out there anymore. It doesn't get me anywhere. It seems as though i am only good for a ( Read more... )

i look back and see that it hasn't really been any different ( Read more... )

Blockades hurling toward the Earth ( Read more... )