Hello. My name is Chellie. I don't like live journal because I have two talk about stuff, I used to be good at that and such, I don't know what happend. Oh well ( Read more... )

I don't feel much anymore, I wish I had something to push me, I want to be sober but theres no reason to be.

Its been what? like 8 months, I don't know but its been a long ass time. I keep myself alive at rock bottom with drugs and alcohol, I don't think I'll ever have a relationship again, for some reason I've been able to find these gorgeous nice guys and I cant even stay with them for more then a week, I cant even kiss them, its fucking horrid and I ( Read more... )

Most of the shit I say means nothing, I'm a fucked up girl with way two much shit on my mind and on way two many drugs to ever make sence, don't take anything personal, if I don't say your name I'm probly not talking about you, I'm just a phyco tweeker, you people should know that by now, I dont even know what the fuck i'm talking about. Oh well, I ( Read more... )

Don't talk shit, take a bat two there face.

I'll be home tomorrow.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEfucku.

I'm going to snap and sock you in the face one of these days.

I'm angry "grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!"

Yeah ok, fuck off and die.

I'm way two fucking bipolar, I need to shut the hell up.

I guess I'm okay, but I don't know how long thats going to last.

I had a dream last night, I healed a knife to your throat and told you how much you hurt me, then I woke up ( Read more... )

Reading peoples journals today, god everyone has to deal with so much shit. I don't even know what to say, I'm overly scarred from being fucked over and I don't want to trust anyone ever again, but at the same time I wish love didn't come with pain, I liked being in love, now I'm two afraid to even get close to anyone. I know my overly happy, loud ( Read more... )

My childhood flashed threw my head today, A fear I hadn't felt sense I replaced it with rage. Maybe its because of the dramatic change in me, or maybe the drugs, but it was as if I was a young child again, going threw that same situation and not knowing how to react with anger just fear. I shouldn't have to go threw this shit still, these are ( Read more... )