I feel a little better, I managed to eat some cereal and take a shower to wash the smell of meth of me. I'm going to have to change my sheets before I can lie in my bed again because I had a horrible fever last night and I was sweating like crazy, and my sweat basicly is meth, and the smell of tweek makes me sick at the moment. That's a sign to ( Read more... )

At my dads house so now I have a comp. I'm going threw withdrawal from not having speed and I feel like I'm going to die. My hearts going 50 miles an hour and I cant stop shaking. I feel so sick, I haven't eaten or slept in 3 days. And don't fucking lecture me cus this is better then what I would be going threw withought the drugs. I never thought ( Read more... )

Hairapaloza last night, it was fucking great. Yeah I wasn't going to right in here anymore but I'm happy again so fuck you! I'm very bruised and my body hurts, didn't feel it last night though, I was fucked up, we where smoking J's in the fucking crowd, and I got a new pipe, pretty little glass pipe :) Damn good concert though, saw a few people I ( Read more... )

I said I was going to stop righting in this thing and I am, I was going to delete it but I don't want to so I'm just going to leave it. I'll be on my way to drinking and drugging myself to death, you have a problem with that you can go fuck yourself. Yeah I'm a bitch I know but oh well. I don't need anybody. I just want to get drunk and fucking ( Read more... )

I have become a drug attic and an alcoholic. So basically I'm a fucking fuck up, and I will do this until it kills me.

And now I think I will find some means to detach myself from reality, because reality can suck my balls.

Yup...nothing to wright about, shit nevermind.

Im so drunk.........................................................................................................................................................................................yeah.

I had a really bad trip yesturday. I have so much shit going on, I dont want to talk about it, I want to forget its there.

Thats all I have to say, I think I'm going to remodle my room today, and delete this fucking peice of shit, people dont need to know what a fuck up I've become.

will I remember this tommorow, will i see the cuts and wonder why? I cant belive I did this to myself, I'm soaking wet, I'm bleading, I'm hearing things. What did I do this time, I couldnt focus I didnt know why I wanted this. I will read this tommorow and delet it, but only if I wake up. So much poisin in my body, I cant feel, I cant heal. ( Read more... )

Guess what I'm going to do today, I'm sure you alredy know.

Oh and I changed my journal, it rocks.