Comments | demure_mystique: so is this the purpose i've been waiting for to return?

demure_mystique

so is this the purpose i've been waiting for to return?

Mar 14, 2007 11:58

i remember a time where my heart broke for the lost. i fell down onto my knees and cried for hours in prayer, speaking in tongues, falling asleep and dreaming word-pictures that God placed in my head for sharing upon waking. i remember challenging the cynical and arguing the ignorance. i remember standing up in the middle of my high school to ( Read more... )

Comments 4

it probably doesn't matter kiranda March 14 2007, 23:00:01 UTC

..but I'm praying for you. I don't know the specifics and I barely know the general details, but I can kind of understand your post. Just know that I'm praying that He will give you the strength you need to endure and that He will deliver Josh from his turmoil. You both deserve better than what you're going through. You are in my prayers.

Re: it probably doesn't matter demure_mystique March 14 2007, 23:21:25 UTC

i have been praying on how to respond to this comment since i saw the first two in my inbox 4 hours ago. i genuinely appreciate your prayers, who am i to turn away a letter written for God? with that said, however, i would appreciate as well if you would keep this information to yourself from now on. i don't need to know when or even if you decide to pray for me in order for God to answer them, since they are letters to Him. every time you interrupt my life with your presence, you have brought only calamity and pain, rarely ever bringing blessings you are called to present to your fellow Christians. this has made you more of an obstacle in my walk with God than a building block. i don't agree with the way you lead your life, and when i've tried to tell you before, my words fell only on angry and defensive ears, not taking heed to the points i made. therefore, i can not have you i my life because you will not build me up and sharpen me the way i need to be supported from other Christians. i do love you as my sister in Christ, and i do ( ... )

(The comment has been removed)

demure_mystique March 15 2007, 02:15:24 UTC

oh, Knights of Worship... those days didn't last nearly as long as they should have...

demure_mystique March 15 2007, 02:14:05 UTC

it was like a wake up call beyond belief. before when it was just me i could see myself losing the battle and just be "whatever" and give up. but now i can't do that because i put HIS walk at risk as well as the future of our marriage and family. i can't be that selfish. i've tipped the scale often enough, but that is a little too far.

you've used that song with me before:) even after you burned it for me... i think i'm going to go look for it.