More about Matt... just skip I guess.

[deniedlies]

I'm typing this for my personal benifit.  So I can just get my thoughts out and try to feel better.  Not really meant for people to read, so yes... ignore?

I'm back and forth so fucking often.  I love him, and at the same time I just don't ever want to think about him again because he puts me through so much pain sometimes.  I'm afraid to tell him

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[mandahatesyou]

aw teenie i am sorry. i think stuff like that too about my boyfriend but dont break up with him unless you really really want to.. and if he does really love you then he would change for you but you know how hard it is to give up drugs. just dont listen to what people say about how you desere better because that is your decision.

[deniedlies]

thank you so much amanda... i dont know why but reading what you said just made me think... like a lot. and im staying with him, for a long time. i do agree with the "if he does really love you then he would change for you" part, but i also do realize how hard it can be. all he smokes is weeeeed though and that's EASY to quit. urg. i miss you. lets hang out soon?

[soulofenigma]

True and honest feels can take time to express. You'll see him today. I conversation on the phone holds more emotion than internet, but lacks a body reactions, and thus lacking true humanity. Things will be expressed as they can. There is nothing wrong with being loved. If he says it and he means it, there that is great. Can you live in a relationship that once the hands aren't holding the dream is tossed aside? Even at times of greatest distress, you must let the little available restraint take over....Control over yourself is all you have at your worst moments. Never looking back is a way of progressing only when there is nothing to look back upon...As long as there are memories-there are lessons to remember. Your life is your choice-If ever you need a hand, hold yours up and I assure you it will be held.

[deniedlies]

"Can you live in a relationship that once the hands aren't holding the dream is tossed aside?"

I don't know, I just don't know.

laksdhfaoiuebfuck.

[soulofenigma]

As long as what you feel is true-You shouldn't have doubts....

It would just all be in your head. But you really don't know. You could look at the past and predict the future. But then you'll always have an expectation.

I'd do what I felt-"joy or sorrow-you were true to your heart"

[2hardcore4u]

dude who are you?

[deniedlies]

teenie, from valencia... i dont go there anymore though, you have to know who i am, we used to talk allll the time.

[soulofenigma]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

[deniedlies]

THANK YOU!