so i really need to talk about this and i dont feel like calling anyone and bothering them with it i just want to write it somewhere where i know someone else will read it. here it goes ( Read more... )

weird how i dont write for months but the second i should be studying live journal sounds so intriguing. actually i was just thinking and i didnt know where else to think it. so when i was with wes i thought i was in love. but now im thinking about it and i mean yea i took me a week or two before i was comfortable to kiss another boy but that was ( Read more... )

so here i am finally back in cali. i had an absolute amazing time in washington. wcc this year could only have been better if we were in the same hotel as the team, but then maybe it wouldnt have been as fun. half the time we spent chasing the mens basketball team all over spokane so that we could 'conicidently' be in the same place as them at the ( Read more... )

school is good. and thats about it. life hates me. cheer sucks, im pretty much kicked off...well thats what it feels like being a 2nd year and having dedicated two years and evreything in you to a team and having them tell you that out of 15 people you are 1 of 3 that was chosen to sit out at the tournament. what the fuck ever. and well as for me ( Read more... )

why does he always get so mad at me when i say stuff? i miss him, and im so confused about us right now. he is so happy being away its fucking ryan all over again and im sorry im compairing the two but you know what its the same fucking thing. it is. im not gonna lie. two boys that i love(d) and they leave to go somewhere else where their ( Read more... )

okay i just want to pinpoint this moment. everything is alright. i dont want to jinx it i dont want it to move. just let it sit...simmer. its good

so i should be studying again but im doing this...are we seeing a pattern? so nationals sucked. we got cheated out of finals. we hit our routine perfect it was amazing we hit every stunt nothing fell, not even a wobble. and we didnt even make top 5...the score sheets even looked like they erased them and made the scores lower. the comments seemed ( Read more... )

yes i should be doing homework but i think ill take a break for a few minutes. so this weekend was a bust. friday night was cool some of the cheerleaders..the one that actually appreciate being part of a team went down to di di reese...is that how you spell it? anyway we had a comp on saturday we did so well! we couldve gotten such a high place ( Read more... )

i think its so cute when my horoscope is totally right and makes me feel good about what i was thinking ( Read more... )

wow wow wow...i love when things go back to normal. who would have thought that after crying my eyes out almost every day over christmas break weston would completly turn back around and become the westy that loves me so much. he came out on saturday night and we had the best two days oh they were amazing. so that is a good start to the week minus ( Read more... )