changed name... now apathy_remains

So... indeeed. Things are getting interesting now aren't they. Besides seeing the school counsilor and a psychiatrist I'd say I'm doing fine. In all honesty I want to fuck them and be unresponsive or like Igby Goes Down, but I just don't care to do it. I think my apathy is kicking in majorly now that my family knows. And by family I mean the entire ( Read more... )

I can barely swallow anything. My mother found the cuts. My tonsils are to be removed over spring break. I have winter depression. I will be missing four classes. I probably shouldn't get my lip pierced if I'm getting my tonsils removed. Overall things are just FFFFUUUUCCCCKKKKEEEEDDDD!!!!

This break is becoming most encumbersome on my sanity. In the beginning my mind was occupied with movies and Christmas. Now, I find myself wandering around my house in circles. Last monday I even walked an hour and a half to my old high school just to see my ex. I just want to go back to school, back to my normal life. I want to sit around with ( Read more... )

I hate my family

I am completely fed up with this place now. Everyone is so... immature. And I'm really worried about my sister. She's been taking happy pills almost everynight. Although she seems happier, she's becoming quite a bitch ( Read more... )

The more and more I bide my time here, the more I wish a was back home. Technically I am home except that none of my possessions are here. The days just seem so long in this desolate farm county. Everything seems so elementary... so simple... so boring. I need to concentrate on my work in all the aspects of how I live. Through school... through ( Read more... )

Today was any normal day of doing nothing. Surprisingly I woke up at seven this morning... naturally at that. All I did though was watch TV all day and hung out with Matt. I'll just leave it at that.

So I'm sitting at work, right? Just waiting till five o'clock. When I have my meeting for being around alcohol... not drinking it mind you... just being around it. Well the goos thing is that i work at residence life so i don't have that far to walk. By the way Casey ( Read more... )

Last night was certainly... unenjoyable. First of all, we were bored as fuck out our minds. And when we finally had someplace to go, it gets busted. God damn I hate fucking R.A.'s... especially Kalique. The thing is I wasn't even drinking, but hey I guess taking care of my friends isn't a good enough excuse. And I could point out at least five ( Read more... )