um. no one and nothing makes any sense. but at least i managed to get out of the hood without feeling like too much of an utter idiot. since when are missouri and military the same thing?

2 days from now: Montreal
need to stop letting things consume my life.
am currently an adult. which is weird.
pero, que puedo hacer?
the answer is to get totally trashed and go on a bender from sunday to thursday.
then i can just come back and be serious.

during a bout of mild self hatred i went to the grocery store to pick up lunch meats for my mom and dad. i really wanted to be at starbucks reading about gentrification and social control. then the man behind the counter apologized for being forward, told me i was beautiful, and called my eyes dangerous. he and gil panchy should run away together, ( Read more... )

apparently leggings are the new must have in men's fashion.
the constant must-have in my life is a pack of lucky lights.
spring semester 2007: fourth time's a charm?

blah blah blah.
life is stupid
simons rock is stupid
i want to go home and transfer.
i will be home in 3 weeks except i have never been home before nor have i ever seen home. nor do i know what to expect.
blah blah blah
fester
i am a crossword addict who hates life.
balah balah balah
mind.
leaving.
today.
now.
in the past.
balah balah

my life ( Read more... )

what?!
mess.
confusion.
i wish i could just curl up and be warm and happy and watch greys anaomy drinking diet coke and eating s'mores forever!
work?
why?
why can't I be at UToronto or UT Austin tomorrow???

i have decided that ( Read more... )

EMERGENCY

(calling nonie)

EMERGENCY

it's time. it's too soon. but it did what it had to. the process is complete. but i haven't caught up and im not ready and my name, at this point, really could be Esmeralda and I would never know.

Bushwick
Rivka Borek
Se Hace Camino Al Andar

Thanks.