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[deranged_aries]

life for once it seems is going rather okay. there are no "large" feelings of inadequecy or abandonment. im not pissed off for one reason or another and thusly i havenot written in forever. however there is still the perpetual feeling that i am not wanted. but that is a feeling that i have grown to live with, it is in every aspect of my being

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[banddragonfairy]

to tell you the truth sam, I feel the exact same way when i'm out in the F-court with everyone. I kind of feel like I don't belong there and am not wanted, but still put up with just because every one is so nice.

And I care about you sam! I know we don't see each other much, or talk much, but I do care. We should try to hang out soon, or some time this summer.

I luv you sam!!! *hugs and loves*

[greenspyders]

I just feel like we lost some connection at some point...i have no idea when it was...im pretty much only close to stuey now...which is sad. i still heart you just as much, i just dont see you as much anymore i guess..

[rodentnbag]

i care! im your friggen sophomore, and damn proud of it. you kick ass, and if ya ever need some cheerin up or somewhere to hang out, gimme a call. love ya

[turtlekisses]

I actually read this and I actually care, I've just honestly been a little scared of you for awhile. ::hugs::

[deranged_aries]

why have you been afraid of me, i dont know why anyone would, im not big or imposing and have almost no physical strength to speak of.

if you are afraid of me being mad at you for what happened
its over and done with, the past is the past and i am dealing with it. it takes alot for me to be mad at anyone and if i do get angry it goes away quickly, it takes too much energy to be mad for a long period of time.

i still consider you a friend and would still like to hang out with you. i still love nathan and if anyone hates me for doing so they can, we are all entitled to our oppinion.

i dont know what else i can say to reassure you that im not mad, i was just hurt and the only way we can move on from that situation is to learn and talk to eachother and in turn heal from it to become better people than we once were.

sorry that was so long ::hugs::

[turtlekisses]

if you are afraid of me being mad at you for what happened
its over and done with, the past is the past and i am dealing with it. it takes alot for me to be mad at anyone and if i do get angry it goes away quickly, it takes too much energy to be mad for a long period of time.

Yeah, it's because of what happened because I talked to a bunch of other people about the whole thing and never actually talked to you, so I had no idea how you felt and blah blah blah lesson learned from this is to talk to people you need to talk to and not hear things through people...yesh...::hugs:: it makes me feel better to know where I stand with you and I'll stop being a scaredy cat :D

[deranged_aries]

::BIG HUGS::

[deranged_aries]

only 4 people care.

thats 4 more than i expected to reply and i thank you
to know that there is at least one other person out there, besides my boyfriend, is...(i hate not being elequent)...gratifying (thats the wrong word but it will do for now). i thank you all for putting up with me.