Ahhhh... the boys are pissing me off. Its a touchy subject... I dont like to talk about it. Especially in this way! grrr....

I'm not over it. I can't believe that all this is going on. How could I do that to you? How could you do this to me? I definitely fucked with things... but, yall went a tiny bit overboard, dontcha think?

I've never been so hurt in my life. I wish someone other than just Melissa could've witnessed it.. then I wouldn't feel like I'm making it up. I ( Read more... )

I hate everything about myself.

I hate the way I look. I hate the way I talk. I hate the way I treat people.. I hate the way I treated you.

I hate that you;re doing this to me. How can you justify this? I fucked up majorly.. but you can do this to me? I dont understand. I just want 5 minutes to talk to you. Thats all I ask.

I wish I could go back to the way things were. Back in the day when we were happy, and together.

I don't know if I can do this.

I thought that it was going to be different than it is.

Live it up man.. thats all I can say. You may regret it.

I had a rough one last night. haha. And I didnt intend for it to be!

Me and Melissa were bored in the room, we didnt know where the boys were, and it was thirsty thursday. I definitely was thirsty! so.. we started drinkin. I only did a couple shots, and had a couple beers, and then the boys came in! Of course I started taking more shots with them ( Read more... )

the time just wasnt enough.

I was such a fool, I couldn't see it Just how you good were to me You confested your love and dying devotion And I confessed my need to be free And now I'm left with all this pain I've only got myself to blame

My heart is breaking in every single way possible.

I'm an asshole.

I hate myself.

I try not to think about it..... but then it hits me.

You dont deserve this.

My life isnt the same.

College is definitely the experience. Wow.. I dont even know where or how to begin? This past week that I've been here, its had some major highs and major lows. I'd rather not focus on the low points tho.. cause then I'll just cry again.

This weekend... we've met some really cool people. I'm happy we all decided to  come out of our shell.. ( Read more... )