im free at last, freer anyway. im now living in university place back at home temporarily while i go to school to be an electrician and make a break from Jason. and of course have my second baby. a little boy scheduled for july 2nd. i am incredibly looking forward to schooling. to be completely independent and support my two little babies on my own ( Read more... )

it wasnt a very merry christmas, my Daddy died xmas day. so here i am to take care of things and go to a funeral. so im here with munchkin if anyone wants to contact me.

so ive had a baby girl, Ayla Rain Myrick, on Sept. 19th at 636 am, 8 lbs 19 1/4 inches.all natural...ouch!! shes gorgeous, she looks just like me except for her eyes are Jasons. blue eyes, and they keep getting brighter. i know i know, all babies have blue eyes but she is gonna have blue eyes. i like being a mommy. its an amazing feeling. im ( Read more... )

well, christmas was fun on the road again, spent new years in Utah at a crappy bar playin pool with all my home chickens. its was fun.except seeing Tyler. hes worthless, more than i ever realized. all my friends really liked Jason not to mention my family. my daddys gonna come down to go huntin this fall with us. Jason and i are getting married ( Read more... )

jason bought me a horse for my birthday.hoo-fuckin-haw!! i got a horse i got a horse, hes sooooo preeetty. hes almost 3 yrs old and is a gelding paint, i started him myself and he loves me. hes so cute. hes such a boy. hes got fuckered up knobby knees but he still moves soundly so its just cute. i cant help it im in love with his personality. i ( Read more... )

well im not gonna work for Shelly, who has the reining facility. i dont like her, well i dont like her 'training' methods. too aggressive, too similar to that other lady i once worked for in Washington. fuck that shit again. but Maggie talked to another lady who has a dressage/jumper set up. This couple is from colorado and are much more laid back ( Read more... )

apparently the ladies i work with are having to move off this land and find other facilites cuz of rat bastard rich man requires too many changes that they cant comply with. any way i told Maggie that i dont want to move up to ARkansas with her to work there, cuz i way too into this man ive met down here. so she calls up a lady she known forever ( Read more... )

went to the Rodeo last night at the state fair. there was even a concert afterwards. hoo diggy. i went with my new beau. he wanted me to meet some friends of his and they were all going. there were some pretty horses at least, and the only black man in the whole thing kicked all them other cowboys asses. we didnt stay for the concert needless to ( Read more... )

its a real world where i am. my boss broke down crying tonight, a very rich man bought the property i work on and is doing construction on half the property, which once was fields to house her mares and foals and a couple dozen other horses. she has traded maintaining the property for use of it for 9 years, building her breeding training facility ( Read more... )

i feel great confusion. i dont know what to feel or what to listen to inside of me anymore. do i listen to my heart, what is best for me? who is best for me? who knows how to figure out these things? noone has ever told me. what is truth anymore, is logically thinking out things what one should do, or just going with their emotions on it, or maybe ( Read more... )