(Untitled)

[desertfaith]

I only hope that in my growth toward maturity that I may not lose the joy of living - the pure unadulterated joy of existence. I want to grow up, but I don't want to stop loving. I want to be who I am, but not hurt anyone. I don't want growing old to be "boring."

Comments

Close every door to me, take those I love from me...

[misslouwho]

One of the desert fathers said that his acetisism was to never let and angery though rise above his throat (I think that means he didn't vocalize them even when he couldn't refain from thinking them) I am intensley envious of this ablilty. I think often about the people that I have hurt by what I have done and said because I mistook meaness for growth.

I would much rather be boring. Maybe peace seems boring to those who don't know it. Then again,

"Children of Isreal are never alone"

[desertfaith]

I am envious of that ability also. and wow...i grok what you are saying about being boring being good...i see that you are grokking beyond what i'm saying to what i am really talking about. but if we look at it another way...

Being reliable and steady is good.
Peace is good.
But it's not boring, is it?

The world tries to tell me sometimes that I need to change my spirit in order to live. I do want to be more reliable and steady...but not change... you know...being the sort of adventurous type. There are many things I do need to change! But I want to be creative.

Am I looking at this wrongly? *scratching head with tiredness*