[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

... I can't hide from it all.

I want to. I wish I could just go back to that morning and stop time there and be with him in that moment forever, but I can't do that, I can't, and I can't hide.

I'm the Queen. I have things to do.

None of this ... none of this should have been able to happen. It's my fault that it's ( Read more... )

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I don't believe it. I won't believe it.

Reeve is a liar and Matthew would never hurt me. That's what matters, and that's what I keep seeing. Matthew has never given me any reason, any, not to trust him, and Reeve ...

I will fix this. I will fix it, because I know that Matthew isn't any of these things that people say he is.

[ ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

She

[Filter: Reeve, in Atsirian]

Reeve! Why will none of the guards at the gates let me leave the Palace? And why is this one awful woman insisting on following me around everywhere since I got up!? They all say that it's your orders, and I said that my orders are more important than your orders, because I am the ( Read more... )

[Atsirian]

Hee, only 22 days until my wedding~!

Everyone had better have gotten their dragons in time! Every single person from every single House has to be here, that's what everyone agrees has always happened. Then they can all swear in to the new King-Consort after the ceremony is done. I even worked that part into the plans! If even one Lady ( Read more... )

[Atsirian]

Oh, but now I'm just running out of time!

I need it to be big and important and perfect and everybody has to be so impressed that they write it all down and tell everyone who wasn't there how amazing it was, and people will remember it for decades and decades and centuries and centuries and --

And it's coming so soonOoh, and there's ( Read more... )

[Atsirian]

Hee~

I always thought that nothing could be more glamorous and exciting and wonderful as planning for a big, formal, important ball. But I was so wrong! Planning for a big, formal, and oh so very important wedding is much, much, much, much better!

I hate that this is the only time I'm ever going to get married, because I want to do ( Read more... )

[Atsirian]

Hee! Oh, this is so fun, isn't it, Matthew? Look at them scurry! Oh, this was the best idea ever, wasn't it~?

This is what I'm always going to do from now on! Whenever I want something from the city, I'll just make them come right up here to the Palace and set it all up for me to enjoy here~

And it smells heavenly, doesn't it? Oh, I ( Read more... )

[Filter: Joseph, in Atsirian]

... I did get the gift, you know. The one that you sent me after Rose Day. I did. I haven't said anything about it, but I did.

I just have been thinking about what to say, that's all.

[Atsirian]

Hee, Matthew, you shouldn't have made me laugh so much! Oh, I think I spent half the show bent over my seat! You made me cry I laughed so hard! Hee, I don't think anyone sitting near us could hear a single thing~

Oh, but it was so awful! It was just terrible, really, I can't even say how boring and pretensious it was. It would have ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I do miss him ...

But how can he expect me to trust him!? He hurt me. He hurt me on purpose. He admitted that! How can I ever be friends with someone who hurt me on purpose? He ...

But ...

But he does feel badly. That's obvious. And ... no one's ever said anything quite that impassioned before. He obviously means ( Read more... )