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Ooh! Raezi Saedri!

Hee! I heard someone say that it was your birthday very, very soon! Is that true? Ooh, I bet that it is! When is it! I want to know!

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... it's perfect.

Ugh.

I hate doing this. I hate it. I don't want to. This is my family's history. Queen Raesha took it for a reason, and Westa doesn't deserve to get it back. She doesn't. I feel like I'm betraying something, for here, and I hate it, I just hate it.

But ... but it's perfect. It is. Nobody will be ( Read more... )

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Nothing I can think of is big enough.

Everyone has to really believe it. They need to know that I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, even if they know that I still don't like her. I can't just give her back Connor. And I -- I won't. He is good at what he does, he is. It can't look like I'm just trying to press a button and ( Read more... )

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... maybe I am sorry. A little.

Not that I hurt Westa. She deserved it. She deserved worse, and if she could without showing her hand, she'd have done so much more to me than just that. I hate her and she's terrible and she should be tortured ( Read more... )

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This is so unfair!

I did it because she's awful and she deserved it. She is. She did. She deserves that and worse. She can't treat me like she does, not when I'm the Queen. She has to -- she has to be taught a lesson. I only did that. I only did what any Ansharian Queen would do. She doesn't need to have the name. ( Read more... )

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He's intelligent. He's educated. He has a good family, strong bloodlines. He would establish that I don't have a problem with Cleraine, just her. He seems very honest. He speaks well. He's an obedient man.

He wants the position, too. Everyone says that he wants the position. They've been saying it for weeks. He's ( Read more... )

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This is so -- frustrating!

I know she has those papers! I could just ... dismiss her from the running and send her home, I could. I believe it, now. Reiz wouldn't just make this up. But now ... oh, I really need to know what's in those papers! If I could figure out what Reeve has been telling her ...

I could learn ( Read more... )

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Hee~

Everyone is just going to die when you see my dress for tonight's party. Oh, everyone here is coming, aren't you? It's going to be such an amazing campaign dinner. I so want everyone there~ The ballroom is going to be packed to full!

I hope the rest of the people still intending to campaign get to Razen soon. I can barely keep ( Read more... )

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So many people. And more are getting here every single day, too! I can't keep even them all straight ... trying to figure out who are good and who are bad is ... it's impossible.

Some of them are honest, good, smart people who are exactly what I want on the Council. But some of them just look like that, and they're ( Read more... )

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I don't want for things to go back to normal.

I know they need to. I can't shut everyone out forever, even though I just want them all to go away, because I'm their Queen, and they need me, and I need them. I can't just go on being sad forever, either, because I'm only twenty-three today, and I'm going to be Queen ( Read more... )