[Filter: Matthew and Joseph, in Atsirian]

Hee. Are you both all packed up to go, tomorrow~? We're leaving right at sunrise, remember! I don't want either of you to make me late~

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

It's better than nothing.

I do want to be away from Razen. Every time I see any woman, all I can do is stare at her, and wonder if she's the one Reeve loves. I think about it all the time, I even dream about it. I'm so ... tired of that ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I wonder if Reiz has said anything to Reeve, yet ...

... I can't stop thinking about her. I wonder who she is, what she's done ...? What's so special about her, that makes Reeve love her? I wonder why he'd have taken up with Aes in the first place, if he loves her so much that he couldn't stay with her?

Maybe I ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I ...

I can't help it.

[Filter: Reiz, in Atsirian]

Reeve tells you things, doesn't he?

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Matthew ...

I don't want him here. I don't. Why does he have to be here?

He's everywhere, now. I can't make him go away, I can't get rid of him. That's ... it's not fair. I'm the Queen. Everything should do what I say. It's not ... it's ...

[Filter: Joseph Eshene, in Atsirian]Why can't there be one place where he ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private]

He loves someone else ...

This is ... so much worse. So much worse than seeing him with Aes. I could tell myself that it didn't mean anything. There was so much comfort in how I could tell he wasn't quite commited to it. That was nice. That was wonderful. That was ...

... but he loves someone else. He said as much ( Read more... )

[Atsirian]

Hee!

I am sooo excited for my ball! I'm not even upset anymore that we had to push it back a bit, because it's just making every talk about how amazing it's going to be~! And they're right, because it is going to be amazing.

Some dragons still aren't here, though, hrm. They had better come before the ball, because I'll be very upset ( Read more... )

Hee, well, all of the dragons are sent! Ooh, I should tell everyone here what I did!

I'm to be have a ball amazing later this month, and because it's going to be so grand, I thought that I should invite people from all the Houses in Atsiria! I have royal dragons just for this reason, you know~ I have more than one-hundred, though we never send out ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private]

It's amazing, how Westa can be so awful, but her brother is so ... pleasant. He always seems to say just the right thing, and when we were talking, there ... hm, well, it actually seemed as if he was talking to me because he liked me. Me, not just the fact that I'm the Queen~ It's not as if I mind that, but ( Read more... )

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I wish I could just get rid of Matthew.

It just gives Aes an excuse to pay attention to Reeve all she wants. Because I'm with her brother, she has all the time she wants to be with my brother.

It's not fair. I hate it.

That's why I didn't want to have my ball on Rose Day. Reeve and Aes would just spend the entire ( Read more... )