my mother, the suicidal alcoholic

[desired_abuse]

i have nothing left at home worth staying for. i feel sorrier for russ than for myself. i really don't mind my life right now, i just don't like myself when i'm around her. i don't like to complain, i don't like people feeling like they have to give me pity for this. so i really haven't told anyone. because nobody really actually cares. and

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[_blue_pulse]

"love me
for love does not exist
and i have tried everything that does."

[desired_abuse]

exactly.

[prittikitti]

:steven, kat, etc.
whatthefuckever.:???
whats that supposed to mean?

tell me.

[desired_abuse]

i love that the only bit in this about you is the only one you want to know about.

it proves my point.

i don't remember what it was about, to tell the truth. i think you two were arguing when i wrote it. and it was background noise in my brain.

everything is, now.

for your own good.

[clokverkorange]

ah so.

here is the point of that message...you're so mysterious sometimes it's almost annoying. i have to peice you together like a puzzle with missing peices.

anyhow, i've been so existential lately that i can't offer any positive counterpoint. sometimes, it's possible to be too smart for your own good.

this is what they tell me, anyway.

november won't really solve anything. that's just my two cents. sorry i'm so negative but i have a bad feeling in my spine about things coming up here pretty soon. fear, i think some people call it.

i'm off to buy a shirt.

Re: for your own good.

[desired_abuse]

damien, this is as straightforward as i get. this entry was so honest it's repulsive.

who needs a counterpoint to truth?

nothing needs to be solved. november will give me the means to leave if i need to, though.

what shirt?

[dante1028]

*hug* :/