Well I had the baby on Apil 11. It was a little girl that I named Trinity Rose. She's beautiful. Justin was there but he might as well not have been. From what I'm hearing, he had to be made to show up. He was too busy with his girlfriend whom he says is more important than his daughter. It kills be because she's almost two weeks old and he's seen ( Read more... )

rhythmic rolling and tumbling
going on inside me
not just the turmoil of a broken heart
but the climactic movements of unborn life
where do we go from here
the burden left to bare
traveling through daily sorrow
dreams of love crushed by despair
the rock a symbol
the hard place a reality
yet being stuck between the two only increases the strife

Hey all. Well it's been awhile since I've posted and soooo much has happened. It's all so crazy and stuff. I'm now 8 1/2 months pregnant and yes it is Justin's. He became such an ass and really started treating me poorly. I finally told him to shove off and not to come around here anymore because I was tired of it all. It got to the point where if ( Read more... )

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went to justins last night. fell asleep watching movies. it was really sweet. if i had been laying there with any other guy that i know, they wouldnt have kept their hands off me but justins a total sweetie. hes not all touchy feely n stuff.his mom came in and woke me up. so it was kinda weird. i dont want her to hate me. justins an only child and ( Read more... )

wow...i feel like im bleaching what little brains i have out.....im putting some blonde die on my hair to try and lighten the black out..dad says hes tired of looking at me and justins been kinda mmmm about it since he saw it. I dunno i'm happy with it but you know how it is before ur 18,if they aint happy they'll make ur life a living hell. well ( Read more... )

alrighty....lookie here, i have to give mad love to my girl laura for my awesome page. thanks girl. love you bunches. anyways, imma see about dad letting me drive over there one of these days. you know. considering its not too far. anyways, guess what? me and justin have officially been together a month (as of today) and you know what else. i just ( Read more... )

you know what i just realized gets on my nerves worse than anythin. people saying that they are gothic or that being a goth is cool.. why does everything that means something always turn out to be soooo commercialised and then end up being nothing. what is this world becoming. are we going backwards. where being a misfits or outsider becomes cool ( Read more... )

Yeah its been awhile. you know how it is. sometimes you do and sometimes you dont. anyways, me n justin will have been together a month on thursday. woo hoo, wow and what an anniversary, thanksgiving. anyways, i dunno today was a blah day. im just waiting on our break. im so dang tired of school. i do wish that for once justin would act decent ( Read more... )

Laura always makes me feel better.. i still wanna beat the bitches fuckin ass you know. its bullshit...shes done this shit just to do it and throw it in my damn face. all she has to offer is a piece of loose twat. i dunno i happen to think im fat and ugly...maybe thats why she is able to steal the guys away. i dunno anyways im too pissed and ( Read more... )