I'm very happy lately. But really, it's a rollercoaster, if you think about it. Whenever I'm home, I feel so depressed and I hate myself but then as soon as I get to Orem and get to see Joe and spend time with him, I feel like nothing could touch me. I don't hate myself, and I'm not depressed, I'm just miserable up here in my house. When I ( Read more... )

I'm in the shittiest of moods today. Went shopping with my mom and sister, which wouldn't have been so bad, but my sister was, as usual, searching for my mom to buy her everything and my mom's always in a bad mood, so there's not much to be said there. Came home, and I talked to Joe, and that was the one redeeming factor of my day. But then we ( Read more... )

I hate the way Genevieve makes me feel sometimes. When we were on the way home she was seriously getting so pissed at me for not wanting to do pilates with her. My knee hurts and my stomach doesn't like me right now. But then she just started getting so pissed at me, to the point where she was answering in one-word responses. its not really her ( Read more... )

So I'm stuck at home all by my lonesome with no one to talk to. Its actually quite nice. Just me and my music, thats always a choice combination. I just barely watched moulin rouge. how fuckin awesome is that? lol, i have a sickness. i love that movie. yeah make fun of me if you need to, i don't care. its such a cute movie, and i swear now ( Read more... )

I’ve been here far too long to give up now ( Read more... )

Scared ( Read more... )

you never used this journal. how rude. im taking it back to post all my poetry from now on. until you want it back i guess. well, IF you want it