I'm so damn exhausted. Work has been taking a lot out of me but I don't see how it's really making me feel THIS damn tired and out of it. I feel like I don't fucking sleep. Thing is, that I do sleep, at least 8 hours. Its just ridiculous and I don't know how much longer I can freaking function ( Read more... )

My 3 day weekend is over already. Blah!! I was enjoying the sleeping in part very much. Today I didn't want to wake up at all. The bed was so comfy and it was so cold in my room. Brrr ( Read more... )

Online journaling is so much easier than on actual paper. It's a pain in the ass I guess. I mostly journal in my little books to bring to Kathy and let her read em. My entry before this one is one that I want her to read and it's like well damn it's online. So now I gotta print it out I guess ( Read more... )

Finally some time to sit and write a bit. Well I went to see Kathy on Friday and that so did not go as planned. It was a horrible session because I was being a bitch. Maybe part of it was because it's that time of month but I'm really not sure what the other part would be. Kathy said I was trying to pick a fight with her and yea maybe I was but not ( Read more... )

I should be in bed already but I wanted to write a little before I hit the sheets and get ready for another day at work. So exciting! I have begun reading the book I recently bought about sexual abuse and it's draining at times. It is so weird how a lot of it just hits the nail right on the head. It's as if I wrote this book, I swear. I just got ( Read more... )

God it's been way too long since I've updated any journals that I have. Especially this one. Ever since I started working in January I have hardly any time to do the things I used to. But it's better than staying home and wishing myself dead on a daily basis ( Read more... )

I'm so damn hungry and there is nothing to eat in my house, no lie. J is out and is supposed to pick up something to eat and it's already a quarter to 9pm. I called her cell twice and guess what, I got no damn answer. She "doesn't hear the phone." Well hellooooooo what is the vibrate function for? I wonder...sheesh. I'm just really hungry and ( Read more... )

Well I went for the interview at Kids R Kids (Daycare center) and the lady said she'd call me in a few weeks and if I didn't hear from her then to call. I was so excited that I got this interview! I just hope to God that I get the job because I need it and I really WANT it. I love kids!! The interview went okay and she seemed really nice! I kept ( Read more... )

I woke up at 6:45 am and I felt like death. I was so damn tired! I went to see the psych. My appt was at 8:15 and I finally was seen at 9:20. God they are so slow there!!!!!! Then I had to wait to see the caseworker. So about 40 minutes later this lady came out (not my regular case worker) so I'm thinking wtf mate? lol Turns out she was a ( Read more... )

I'm sick of the same old thing. Go to therapy, feel a lot better cause I saw Kathy, a few days later that feeling has faded away and it's back to the depressing place. It's the same everytime. Then I spend a week and a half wanting to call Kathy to talk to her because I feel so shitty. She's always telling me to call her but I feel like if I call ( Read more... )