I really don't have too much to say tonite, it has been a good week in some ways and a bad week in others. I became a "girlfriend" this week, or should I say got a girlfriend of my own. I was very excited for that. But at the same time I have felt like shit otherwise. I really am not in the mood to write tonite, don't know why I decided to get ( Read more... )

When I was a kid, I used to get away with anything. I snuck out of the house almost EVERY night. Me and my friends, we used to come back to Mom's house after school and we would dip into mom's vodka, we would smoke cigarettes, jump off the roof into the pool, pretty much anything we could think of, we would do. And basically just because we could ( Read more... )

When I graduated from high school, I was swimming in confidence. I had the mindset that if I wanted something, I could get it, no questions asked. I thought that if there was somebody I was attracted to, I could have them, and part of that was the rebellious side in me willing to do whatever to get what I want. I was so quick to experiment, try ( Read more... )

I hate the feeling of not having control of my own life. My life is spinning out of control so fast, I am getting fucking dizzy. I am behind on my bills because I supported someone for so long that I had to go month to month and decide which bills I could push off a little bit longer, so that I didn't have to listen to him bitch about not being ( Read more... )

Ok, so some friends you just know will be there for you through thick and thin, and others call you when they need something. Some will talk about you behind your back and some will tell you to your face when you've fucked up. But the kind of friend I try to be to everyone is the type that will always be there for you regardless of how tough ( Read more... )

Wow, just when you think you have life by the reigns, it has a way of switching up on you unlike anything you have ever known. You always have to be aware to expect the unexpected. My recent experiences, perfect example. But I can't complain because mine has happened for the better. For others, it affects them in the opposite. Today, for ( Read more... )

Well, I guess in everyone's life there becomes a time when you have to make a big decision, you close your eyes, tighten your grip on reality, hold on tight and pray to god that you won't fall. But it's not the falling that you are ultimately afraid of, it's the fear of making the wrong decision that ends up filling your head with a kind of ( Read more... )

I know you're up there watching me somewhere, so I found it only fitting to start this off by catching up. A lot has changed since the last time I talked to you, and I only hope you can support me in the way you always did, even when you knew I was wrong and we fought with each other until we couldn't stand to be mad at one another a minute longer ( Read more... )