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such a lovely night NO but whatever I don't even care to get into it other then I am happy after tonight it is all done with no more xmas shit or anything yippy next year will be better cause gavin will understand but hmmm lol I think I am just gonna go on to bed soon.... to me it seems like every other night anyways.......

Yippy it's time for bed!!! I don't think I could stay awake 5 more mins......today just suck'd and so did last night hehe I dunno why I stay up so late last night think'n cause it did not help nor think'n today and well it is go'n on 11 and my mind is still think'n but I am not get'n anywhere I am a dork oh well

maybe I will go get my hair cut today !!

yup yup I am still awake haha it is 2 ahhhhhh damn it my mind won't stop think'n ......I am lost ...I dunno what to do, think or feel I am just freak'n confused ...... what happens next huh?

it's always fun be'n up at 12 30 I am drive'n myself crazy over some shit evan said I dunno cause it is not true and yeah if he does read my IMs or whatever so be it he did on my other comp and he told me he was gonna on this one to and yeah whatever I did some shit that would get under his skin so he would get piss'd and tell me but I never ( Read more... )

I know the answer to my last post............

grrrrr I had a so much wrote down and I got kick'd off and it is gone ahhhhhhh oh well it don't matter like I had said tho I hate wake'n up alone on a day like this I just wanna go cry blah

..........grrr so much on my mind yet dunno what or how to say it I still am lost I guess thatpissd off mood went away and now I feel like crawling into bed and cry'n my eyes out geez damn it I don't understand why things are so hard.............and now it is all fuck'd blah I hate this bullshit

why why why damn it I hate this so much I dunno what was I should feel tho it don't matter but still "you don't know what you got till it's gone" so true so true I dunno grrrrrrrr help