024 / you break it, you buy it.

[destrukti0n]

why am i so confused? what the fuck is really going on here?you know, we make up this secret check list in our heads.. all these ideas of what we want and when we want them. you just can't wait to see that list get smaller and smaller and as you silently cross off what's been finished you smile because once everything is done.. you can be happy,

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[incomplete185]

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[destrukti0n]

amen! :P :D

[destrukti0n]

welcome to my world?

[_fierceinvalid]

wow, sometimes I think you are reading my mind.

[destrukti0n]

hah, well i'm sorry that you have to feel this kind of confusion but i'm glad that i'm not alone :/ *hugs ya*

[jenny_grrl]

-smiling- What have I always told you baby? Things will change and they'll change suddenly. That check-list? Mine is ... oh, 11 years longer than yours... and at thirty years old, it still hasn't changed. I mean, it grows shorter, but then it gets longer again because there's always something more you want to do. There's always something else you can do to enhance yourself.

I know you'll poo-poo that. "I'm not like you in that way, Jen," I can just hear it now. But you know... I bet you will be. I know you Sara... you're not one to settle for mediocre. You're not one to just go, "Yeah, I accomplished this, now I'm done." -sitting on the couch with your arms folded-

Really, just flow with it. Smile if you have reason to. Cry if you have reason to.. but know that things will changes just as abruptly as they have. -smiling- And that's okay. To quote someone I love, "It's all good, baby."

[destrukti0n]

i know.. i just wish i really felt that way right now :)

[jenny_grrl]

I totally understand. I'm the queen of wishing I didn't feel restless or disatisfied or ... sad. I completely understand baby.

It's like giving advice to someone, knowing they can't take it... but wishing so much that they could.

[destrukti0n]

*nod*