i feel empty and dead, i dont know why , maybe its being back home still no better off than when i left.my relationship with selina is suffering b/c of it and i feel like shit , its not her problem that im a loser.i dont know why she keeps me around.:(i miss her

im alive in el paso,my great grandma passed away so we came to her funeral.right now im at my aunts house since noone else has a comp.i miss selina and i cant see and my allergies are killing me.errgh :( i miss selina

Since william never updated his jouranl to tell you that we didnt break up and he's going to El Paso for almost 3 weeks i will!! ummmm ok i just did.

I know your life is empty ( Read more... )

numb within dont know how to begin,in my head i am dying once more this hell i put me through.broken promises and empty truths i fall into the void.drowing i cant breathe.kicking my feet im sinking deeper.black engulfing me ( Read more... )

this is selina! hey look i never update in my journal but ill update in williams! lol anyways im reeeeallly bored. ok bye now

ok it just fucked my post.anyway in the short version i am going to finish an old story even if it kills me,because i watched a movie and it helped me realize what i want,for the moment.ok heres the story to date ( Read more... )

ugh its been a sucky past two days.i think i fell asleep talking to selina im not sure then work called me the next morning so i was working till 6 in the evening.then i was waitingfor selina to come back from work and i feel asleep again.grrr i hate this .i just called her and she isnt home.not good :( and i have to work again at 6 so if i dont ( Read more... )

it amazes me how much i love her.how one minute we can be in a severe fight and bam like it never happened and we were laughing and being happy.i never want that to end.the spark she creates in me.shes a drug in the addictive sense.im hopeless for her. its differnt feeling like this.i was so used to being alone and now i cant think of life without ( Read more... )

im not dead.things have been intense with selina but i think we're past that now.anyway they cut hours in half at work so im thinking about getting a second job.saw the matrix reloaded today.it was badass thats for damm sure,anyway i wanna get back into writting err have to finish my stories.ok im bored gotta go.ciao