several hours before i have to go to a new job a new place to integrate my social tendencies.gosh i was at blockbuster for so long i dont know how im going to handle this.im a bit scared i might fuk this up considering this job is very different from previous employment.i have horriable skills on a phone and my typing isnt that great.hopefully its ( Read more... )

Dear william ( Read more... )

im soo fucking desperate for a social life.i dont care with who just please get e the fuck outta here.i have a job interview on monday i really need that job and will give sexual favors to get it if i have to.if i didnt have tthe internet or a phone i mightve done something drastic.im bottled like cheap soda ready to explode, but enough about my ( Read more... )

when things end its never the way you envision or something you accept.it comes at a time where you dont even consider it nor wouldve thought it could end like this in the first place.though its foolish to imagine some things never ending but yet we do.like religion we cling to things with faith that they wont be gone.we blind ourselves with this ( Read more... )

seems like all i have is time at the moment.time to ponder my mistakes,writhe in my guilt, and feel so alone.the damage thats around cant help but notice its bleak outline.tragic not just yet.i say fuk the bullshit im gonna break thru the rut and kick karma in its face.i am getting out of here.i am going to cali.i am going to make a film i can be ( Read more... )

so here i am sitting in front of the only furniture i own typing on my computer.i am in nashville, tn and broke,unemployed,and miserable.but latley only the first two changed.things were supposed to different when i got here but they seem to have gotten worse.my roomate, the shmuck lost his job and car two days after i got here.not really his fault ( Read more... )

so i come to another turning point in my life,relocation.in roughly 2 and a half weeks i will be moving to tennesee to share an apartment with my he-bitch of a friend, kieth.as usual im not any better off than when i left el paso.well i do have a goal and some cash but still no car or any adultlike quality.but i think i'll be ok and ill be glad to ( Read more... )

clatter across the floor, darkness all around.the glare in the shadows of the hatred in me.a reflection of decay and rage....err brain dead :(

i'm alive!

so dont forget to fuck yourself.