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blehhhhh
I wish life had a meaning or I had something to look forward to in life. I don't know why I bother to get up and try. Maybe I'll find a ledge or something. -
INSANITY
I feel like I should be happy but all I feel is that I'm missing something major. I am doing well I think, I've got a job I like and I'm buying a house. I've by all accounts got it going on but I'm missing something. Friends and a real life, I just coast on through. -
Ugg
Just venting, I'm feeling especially girly today well that and ugly. BUT very girly. I'm stressed and tired of school and am ready to quit. Maybe I will at least then I could support my loser self. I want someone to hold me and make me feel special. -
Fuckin Life
I find it odd that I can be alone in a house with three others. I don't belong anywhere it seems. Well I'll be moving somewhere soon, either home or another apartment here. We'll see maybe someday I'll actually feel a connection to somebody. Cause I can't say that I feel like I've got one now. -
(Untitled)
so I actually got the nerve to tell my parents about my gender and sexual preference quandary. It went a lot easier than I expected and took a lot of stress away. I'm still not sane by any means but I'm not completely freaking out now either. -
Fun stuff
Well ain't that a misleading title. Well there has been some fun, I've been shoe shopping and jean shopping and I got some great stuff. But that's not really what has me writing on here. I've been having a lot of depression lately and I did go see a psychologist and that does seem to be yielding some results, though I'm still having issues. I am ( Read more... ) -
Hell
How does one know when they have completely lost it? Is it when you can't function anymore, Is it when you spend your days thinking up ways to kill yourself, Is it when you can't even motivate yourself to get out of bed, Is it when you wake up and would rather be in a hole that you can never escape from. I'm finding myself more and more depressed ( Read more... ) -
Life
So life has not been overly good recently. I haven't really wanted to be alive this week which is very scary. I've had dreams that detail my death in almost every way possible. I've been hardly able to function though I wouldn't let anyone I talk to know it though I probably should. It makes me sad that I can't talk to people when they are ( Read more... )