Ugh ( Read more... )

I can hardly sleep anymore, and that's something that has really become a pain in the ass. Either I can't sleep at all and fall asleep in the early morning or I fall asleep really early and wake up at 6 am because I have to fucking pee. That was the case today.. and to my happy surprise, my internet was still out because the router needed a reboot ( Read more... )

I feel lonley : (.

Even though I know you just said it as a witty little joke.
It made me smile like never before.

I got a mosqito bite on my cheek and I've been tapping it for the last eternity while thinking about stuff. Since I'm sick and therefore spend a lot of time in my room it gets me to thinking, more to thinking than to studying which I am trying to get myself to do but my eyes keep wondering off the pages of the book to gaze around aimlessly. I feel ( Read more... )

Hah, I can hear the typhoon blowing up outside the window... it should stop teasing and come blow me away.
School keeps me busy, I'm having a hard time sleeping at night but part from that life is pretty good.

I think I'm coming down with a cold so I've started to cure myself already with everything that reads "painkillers".
Okay it's time to go, the ( Read more... )

Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.
Drinking is bad.

I am also pissed, that people seem to think something is up with me.
Life is awesome. I feel awesome.
It's 32 degrees celcius, the alcohol is practically free ( Read more... )

I am so weird about anything post-life. I try to talk to my friends, but I find myself not paying attention to what they have to say.
I try to grasp memories and hold onto people that I once used to know but I don't have enough will to - (and neither does he).
I even do weird things like bundle my hair up and twirling it into a knot, concidering a ( Read more... )

I just realized - this very second - that I've reached to where I don't trust anyone.

Ain't that funny?


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Dear Myself, I'm so sorry I suck.
I'm so sorry I am crying so hard right now.
I'm so sorry I keep doing it wrong and talking to him wrong and dealing with him wrong.
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Dear Heart, I'm so sorry I do this to you.
I'm so sorry I don't put you first.
I'm so sorry I shut you out and outvoice you whenever you get the guts to step up.

And Dear You, who I love ( Read more... )