i met the girl of my dreams in my dream last night. she was everything i could ever hope for. her name was kelly, which was such a contradiction for her. it was a halloween party and i was at Rich W's house for this thing. I didn't want to be there, i was there trying to get some of my stuff back from him, but i was still there. I had been ( Read more... )

you are everything that people like me strive to make up for on this earth ( Read more... )

days like today ( Read more... )

i gave tyler five words and he wrote me this song, then played it for me on skype ( Read more... )

i dont even care if when i get back i dont feel romantically towards tyler. he is one of my best friends and he makes me happy. and i will hangout with him because of that. because he is awesome. and skypes with me and sings to me when i'm sick.

The Man With The Golden Arm is the first movie i've ever seen that legitimately shows how junkies act. the entire movie is just like watching john. how they do it. how they convince people to give them money. frank sinatra hits it perfect. just perfect.

where the fuck are my free drugs.

i a lwaysn forget how [physically exhaustiing tripping is.

i miss this kid. i really do. and it makes me sad.

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i think i've been growing an unhealthy disdain for feeling emotions. i think i look at feeling emotions now as some lowly, something pathetic. i can deal with the world and their emotions, but anytime im around someone whos making it painstakingly obvious how they feel, especially negative feelings, i cant deal with it. i look down on them, and i ( Read more... )